Apparently, I am anonymity incarnate. Today was my last day at work. I've worked at this place for almost two years now, and am one of three people being laid off. I've worked here much longer than either of the other two. So, we had a potluck lunch as a fairwell party for all the people who are leaving today. No one said a word to me the entire time. Our boss' boss came in to say goodbye and my boss pointed out the three people who were leaving and he shook the other two people's hands and walked completely past me as if I wasn't there, though I was standing right there with the others. Everyone else barely spoke a word to me the entire time, though they talked to the other two about what their plans were, etc and said they were going to miss them. These are people I've worked with for two years. I've listened to them bitch about their problems, I've picked up the slack for them numerous times, and half of them don't even know my name.

This happens all the time, and it's not that I avoid interacting with these people, because I've tried to be friendly and to help them out when they need it and make a point of at least saying hello to them every day. I don't know if it's them or me that is the problem, but since this happens a lot in various settings, I'm thinking there's just something about me that makes people want to look past me no matter what I do and I have no idea what it is. I'm not really angry about it, I'm just puzzled and a little disappointed. I'm not capable of really giving up, but the thought that this is how it's going to be forever regardless of what I do is depressing as hell.

Anyway, I've decided to try to find a project to work on and take my mind off things for a few days, otherwise I might go into a depression tailspin with all the crap going on. I'm trying to think positively about school, but I'm terrified I'm going to screw it up somehow at the finish line. I've decided just to talk to my professor about it tommorrow and find something to distract myself with till then. I don't know what, though.