I find there is a direct correlation between my current mental health and my physical health. If my mental health is suffering my body rebels... if my body is rebelling, my mental health gets worse.

And so its a horrible cycle, and the only thing I can do is change outside stressors, eat better, exercise more... attempt proper sleep patterns.

The one thing I can't fix, and I've tried, is to tackle the mold problem I have in my house. There are certain rooms I can't spend time in, or I instantly get a stuff up nose and I start to cough. I know its because I have a mold problem in this house.

Really, what I need is a better living space. The house is beautiful, but its also 25 years old, and it doesn't take long for any house that's poorly built here to develop a mold problem. I'm half tempted to build myself a small cabin, it'd be easier to clean than this five bedroom house.

I'd rather live with no running water and no hydro than live in a place with mold. I mean, I've lived without both before. Just makes life a little more interesting. Pack water, boil water on woodstove, get a small generator just 'cause. Truthfully this is the first time I've had internet in five years.

And I guess that's one of my problems in life, I feel I'm a little more wild than most. A little less tame, a little less "civilized" and its not that I'm not intelligent, or have good manners. It's just I've lived with the land my entire life. I grew up with no fast food, no shopping, no people really.

Hurrah for being different I guess.