Sometimes, I have such bad days that I begin to doubt that I have BDD. I'll look and see this REALLY ugly girl in the mirror and think that I've just been trying to trick myself into thinking I actually looked normal. My mind starts going in a million directions, trying to find out what I really look like. I need to know, now. And next thing I know, I'm suicidal. These are the worst days for me as they are the most exhausting for me and everyone around me.

I have to convince myself that I'm seeing things wrong.