A lot happened tonight...I can't even go into it all.

The host of my boyfriend's body went into a really bad bit of depression and tried to throw their physical body off a bridge tonight...somehow he blocked the others from reaching him, and only Dante (not co-conscious with their system) was able to pull him away from the edge until I could call him and talk him into coming home.

It was scary as f***. I don't think I've ever been so scared in my life.

Worried for everyone's safety, Jack has taken over the role as host. But he's really nervous about it. I told him he NEEDS to get help - that Johann could have killed them all. Jack is the one most afraid of dying, so I'm not afraid of Jack committing suicide. He's also strong-willed. He claims he'll look into getting help, in exchange for my not reporting the incident to my therapist or the police, etc, and he has Johann locked up away from the others.

All I know is...things are going to be very stressful for Jack and Johnny for a while until they can figure out what went wrong with Johann. Johnny has promised both myself and Jack that he will be there whenever help is needed. Dude to spending a lot of time co-existant with Johann, Johnny knows how to pretend to be the host. And Jack is going to need it.

Worst-case-scenario: Jack becomes permanent host and Johann is fragmented.