I have had problems with depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. My childhood was a nightmare as I grew up with a single mom who is an alcoholic. Nobody ever got help for me and my mom would never admit that something might be wrong with me. after I had my first child at age 21, i was put on anti-depressants. I was quite manic for alot of years but didn't know what it was that was going on with me,i just knew i made really stupid decisions sometimes. 3 years ago i was officially diagnosed as being bipolar 1 and my medication was adjusted to fit this new diagnosis.

i have been wanting to start a blog for awhile now even though i am sure nobody will ever read this.