So, my mom is making me look for a psychiatrist. She isn't going to be patient either. I think I made a mistake trying to be honest and be myself around her. I made a mistake telling her about my SPD. Tensions in my house are up, on their end at least. My step-father started yelling at me in a way that he has never done before, because I didn't say hi to him when he said 'whats up' to me. He basically yelled that 'you don't feel welcome here because you aren't', 'you feel like everything you do isn't good enough for us because you don't DO anything', 'you might as well be asking your mother to kick you out of the house' and 'I have had it with the disrespect (<- ) you show you your mother, and part of that is because *I* am the one who has to hear this $#1T all the time'. He later apologized for how far he went, but didn't apologize for yelling at me, saying that he should have done it sooner. He and my mom asked if I felt like a 'victim' of SPD, and I said "I guess", because I didn't choose to have it and because it has a negative effect on some areas of my life. I am not miserable or pouting here, I am fine with how I am, but evidently they are not. They then instituted new rules along the lines of 'your computer stays out in the dining room or living room from now on' and 'your room is for sleeping from now on, this is a living area, so live in it'. The rest of my summer is going to *suck*. Not that the rest of it was enjoyable. But suck as in worse than before. Can't wait to go back to school. Anyways, I think that looking into a psychiatrist when I will be here only a month more is stupid, but if it is the only way to get them off my back, fine. My friend offered to let me live with him and his parents next winter. I will consider it, but they are not made of money, so I should try and pay them if I decide to go that route. But then my mom might call in my loans to her. Might make me start paying all my own bills. I am not financially ready for that, especially if I pay rent at my friends house. I'm torn