What would truly make me happy.

I want to live my life alone with my thoughts and the people in them. This may classify as sickness or unhealthy/unnatural behavior but by who? Not me, the owner of this life. There is nothing more important to me than me being happy and you cannot argue with happiness. You can not say I've done wrong if I am happy.

My fantasy people, along with the aspects of my personality that differ from and interact with one another, are more than enough companionship I need to remain emotionally satisfied. For external stimulation, there is no end to how many outsiders I can bond with on a superficial level, getting my desires met by them and moving on.

There is no such thing as a universally socially rejected/rejectable person. No matter how I choose to present myself, no matter what I want or need, the internet alone is enough to connect me to the right person(s). As long as I am able to reach out when I want, and I always will be, there's nothing to worry about.

I consider myself an emotionally self-sustaining individual with social tendencies. There are people I cherish and always want to keep close enough to be around if and when I deeply want to. I'd like to be able to travel to well-populated areas if I want some indiscriminate fun. But for the most part I want to be alone.

I'm someone who is labeled as being "excessively" sensitive but the truth is, in emotionally-based relationships, you are entitled to emotional security. As it is a relationship based on how the individuals involved feel about and around each other, responsibility for the emotions you induce in the other person must be accepted. I plan to keep close the one person in my life who at least pretends to understand this. I am also entitled to my principles and moral stand-points, and to judge those who share/do not share them as I see fit. It is not just about how the things people do, say and think make me feel but why they make me feel that way. If I view something/someone as morally disgraceful, I have every right and reason to discard it/them. Refusing to take responsibility for how you make someone feel and therefore respond to you is a moral disgrace in and of itself to me. If you do not like what I say and do to you when you upset me, then don't upset me. We are both equally responsible. As I could have chosen to be a pushover and react however you think I should react, you could have chosen to behave/speak appropriately in the first place according to how you should and should not make me feel. I have these same obligations to the other person.

I cannot justify hurting you, but you cannot justify hurting me either. Accept that you did wrong, I'll accept that I did wrong, and we will apologize, make changes and move on, never repeating that incident. But trying to justify/rationalize something that you did to hurt me is not acceptable. And I never do it unless it is done to me first. If you can admit you were wrong for hurting me, mainly BECAUSE you hurt me, then I will more likely openly admit that I was wrong for lashing out at you.

But let's be real: If it's something you did out of intentional disregard for my feelings or intentional defiance of my boundaries, you literally asked for the consequences. One of those consequences being my pain. And you are never to be anything less than devastated over my pain, no matter what the cause. You are suppose to want to prevent it, and actively avoid causing/triggering it. I have these same obligations. It's not complicated, and it's perfectly fair. If you disturb my emotional peace, show genuine remorse or piss off. I may not always give you time to show remorse before I snap back, it's true, but if you're sorry, I'm sorry. If you're not sorry, bye.

If you do not agree with this, I simply do not have enough respect for your values/lack thereof to even care what you do, say or think. So don't worry. Things between us will remain simple. Just never, ever think we will ever be close.

I have single right to discriminate heavily, who is and who is not an appropriate companion. And I understand that anyone - maybe everyone - may hurt me at some point. Unintentionally. But the proper response when this happens is an apology and honest effort to not do it again. If I perceive a flaw in how someone thinks, about anything, I am darn well entitled to reject them as a person. I have no shame in being judgmental. In the end it is more fulfilling for me to only keep, what I consider, the best.

I figure, if this person cannot gratify me emotionally at least as well as I can gratify myself, then why am I wasting time with them? That's more time I can be spending with myself. If someone disturbs me emotionally, in ways I do not have to worry about happening when I am alone, then why would I exit the ideal/superior situation (being alone, or with people who are actually compatible with me) in order to enter an undesirable one? That is nothing short of self-destructive. Happiness is the ultimate goal. Abandoning it in order to be anything less than happy and comfortable when such isn't absolutely vital to one's physical or emotional survival, is frickin' stupid and everyone knows it.

I'm happier alone.
My values are important to me.
If a relationship is not emotionally secure/satisfying to the point where upsets and disputes are a big deal BECAUSE they are so rare, then it is inferior to the relationship I share with myself.
I have the right to be judgmental.

If I turn out to be happier alone/with minimal socialization, nobody can tell me a darn thing.
If it turns out it actually isn't for me, then I'll change it.
Whatever makes me happy.

Can't argue with that.