I want to lose weight, still. I've been 114.4 lb for a very long time now. Well nearing to 2 weeks anyway, which is a long time to stay at the exact. same. decimal.

EXACT!

My dissociation was playing with my mind yesterday, and now in fact I have a dual thought track running in my head to Overdose. I don't want to, the thought track - who ever that is, does! I was a child yesterday. I was watching myself, and another came out to play. I could see myself, questioned myself why are you acting like this...but I was gone, in a "state" because I've been diagnosed with states not identities: probably because I'm more aware and probably because I can remember things and apparently m personalities don't have fully formed identities yet. In other words, I'm not as severe as DID, but I have "states".

I think that's what came out to play yesterday. It's scary.