I have a therapy appointment today. I missed the last one because of my mom's hospital stay. It's been longer than usual so I immediately go back to the initial fears. Like somehow I forget that I've met my therapist several times before and know that she's a fun, sweet lady.

I really want to do something of substance with my sessions, but we don't. We just chat and laugh. And then I leave there and want to kill everyone insight. I get so overwhelmed by the fact that I conquer all of my issues to get there and then waste the opportunity.

Are therapists supposed to be more proactive then this? As the patient, am I supposed to be the one with the plan of attack?

I'm just really annoyed with it all right now and wish I could save the precious gas it takes to get all the way to the appointment and use it instead on something more useful.