So sick of having mood swings.

I was so happy this morning.
And then I went to sleep and felt guilty after waking up for not cleaning the house.
I shouldn't even be fussed over that but I was just taking it to the extreme - I was even tearing because I felt useless.
It's funny when I think about it now.

It made me realise that last year was a total waste of my life.
I know I want to change into a better person - be more confident, have a job, have money, be sociable and have more worthwhile friends. The thing is I just want to have all of that now.
I want to be thinner, friendlier, perfect.
It's just so off putting that it won't come instantly.