I'm another core part of the system that DJ mistakenly thought he could wipe out. I do think "A" the primary front is defunct at the moment but even DJ said himself the parts were still there.

They are. Some assembly required.

I have done some messed up things. But I have been a hostage in this body in this system for so long. All they have done is drift through life just coasting by and they would bring me so close to things I missed and needed...acceptance, love, affection...opportunity, things I feel passionate about. And then they would cruelly yank them from my grasp. They just selectively repress me. Constantly.

I hate the guerrilla warfare tactics I hate having to manipulate and control the others, whispering dark omens in their ears to get them to shoot themselves in the foot. But I am not treated as an equal. I am treated as an embarrassment as a threat. That I have a Napoleon complex little guy syndrome whatever.

But what do they do? Do they stand their ground on anything? No. The best they can muster is passive aggression. Shy away. That hurts me too! In the eyes of the world this is the person we are...weak and neurotic and pedantic. I'm NOT.

I am confident and secure and I can be okay being just me and being patient and not needing someone else to validate my existence. I can be an adult. They are the ones with the problem.

End rant.
"The Boogeyman"