The urge is strong. I was actually thinking maybe I will leave really early in the morning and be back home by lunch time. I was thinking that I will only bring a few hundred dollars, no cards, no checks just a designated amount and try my luck with controlled amount. Or...... I could take that same money and go clothes shopping? I started thinking that I could buy fall leather boots, some sweaters and a skirt or slacks and still have enough left for lunch. OK shopping is going to win because It's a sure bet. Self Talk Shopping for fall wardrobe, fall shopping, lunch. I need to keep writing to talk myself off the ledge. Self respect.

At least with shopping, you have something tangible, in your hand, to show for it! Hang in there...