February 2020
July 2019
so we got back together for a short while but i stupidly called it off... she did something to me but it wasn't really her fault this time. i regret my decision now, but i know all she's done is hurt me so it's for the best.
i feel really depressed right now, and have probably faced the strongest suicidal thoughts since the start of this blog. i'm not gonna kill myself though. i've also developed a lot of anxiety recently. i keep meaning to go to the GP but i can't bring myself to phone in and actually go there, i have no motivation at the moment.
on the bright side, i passed my first year of uni with 63%.... i revised everything the day before haha. i was expecting 40% or a failure and my highest mark was 71%.
my drug use has got to worrying levels recently... all i can think about is getting more drugs. the stress and anxiety of the breakup has led to me drinking heavily (not alone, but at parties and when i go out) and it has led to some aggressive events with me trying to fight people and arguing with people. when you feel ashamed of your behaviour the morning after you know it's a problem. hopefully when i trip on acid for the first time i can get some introspection.
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