So, my day.

dsgdsgresnuigerg

First of all, I'd like to congratulate you on your efforts and tell you that you have my respect for pushing yourself out of the comfort zone like that.

I don't know the details of why you want to keep AvPD to yourself and I do understand you at least a little since I have kept mine to myself too, but I think that if they found out it would be for the best.

I don't remember where I read it but I read that people with AvPD are excellent candidates for therapy and that it is very possible to become at least functional with enough therapy and the will to change.

Personally, I am too ashamed of what I am to tell anyone about it, though I think my family suspects but I guess they just don't care and well, therapy is expensive, I can't pay for it and don't want to burden anyone with paying it for it.

dsgdsgresnuigerg

I understand a little better now. You are in a very hard situation. I know that you don't want to hurt you mother but you should also think about yourself. You are 14, you have your whole life ahead of you and so you should not let it be ruined in the way that PDs can ruin a life. You deserve a good life.

dsgdsgresnuigerg

First of all, kudos on the speech. Great job!

noodle wrote:When it's a matter of life or death, I don't think there is an option do you?

a. Your mother is a grown woman.
b. You can't control her reaction to you needing help.
c. She might feel more hurt that you weren't getting help you needed because of her.
d. Even if she is upset, you can't be held responsible for how she reacts.

You need to take care of yourself, even if you weren't so young, you have to take care of yourself before you can be there for your mom. Although, I hate to say that since it is your MOTHER than should be there for YOU.

Since this teacher is a psychologist, perhaps there is a way to speak to her about your current issues. I think you need help getting help after you have mentioned the situation with your mom. She might be able to help with that.

She said that her door is always open. A person like that, psychologist/teacher is there because SHE WANTS TO HELP. Also, you trusting her with your current issues will make her day/week/month/year. No doubt, that is why she went into both fields. And if she's teaching, but was a psychologist, she is NOT in it for the money. She's there because she wants to help students like you.

Why not take a chance and ask her if you can come by after school and chat? You made a very good first step. But you must keep making those small steps...

dsgdsgresnuigerg

You don't have to say it outloud. Write a note and give it to her. It's much easier than having to SAY things.

Why do you think your mother would be so upset? Is this a rational fear or a fear that you strongly believe? Why?

I'm not sure what to say about the paranoia. What do you think this teacher may do?

dsgdsgresnuigerg

noodle wrote:With my mum it's not a fear at all, it's true and I know that. She would not be able to cope, and that is a fact.

So you prefer to keep suffering in silence so that your mother will be happy with the false belief that you are all right?

Maybe it's my SPD side resurfacing, but I prefer to be told the cold truth than living in a lie that feels good.