desperate to be gang raped, what is wrong w me?

Hi i am a 17 year old girl, and i am so desperate to be gang raped and hurt. I feel like the only way I would actually enjoyed was if it was for real. I have been thinking about ways to make this happen, such as maybe just being out late at night or maybe role playing in pornos but them knowing I wanted it would just ruin the whole thing. I am afraid I will never be able to satisfy myself and that is very important to me.

There is nothing wrong with you. Rape fantasy is very common. Lots of women have this fantasy. However, it's a different story when you want to act on it for REAL (as you point out). I might be able to offer some advice to make your life a little safer (and perhaps more enjoyable). I was in the same situation as you. Since literally puberty, I was extremely aroused by the fantasy of being used for a man's gratification. In my fantasy, however, there was not harm, injury, or force used. It's more like what you would expect from a male who takes advantage of a sleeping girl that he's careful not to wake up. I dabbled in role play, but it seemed more comical than sexy. So I knew that if I was going to act on this, it would have to be for "real". "Real" meaning that the male had to think he's gratifying himself with my body either against my will or without my awareness.

So in my quest for this satisfaction, I discovered adult theater sex. No one goes to an adult theater to watch the porn movie. They go to get off on the crossdressers that go there for sex. The men are straight, but in the near pitch black darkness of an adult theater, anything that remotely feels female will get them off big. So when an actual woman is there, these guys go nuts. And if said woman makes her vagina available, they absolutely MUST have it. If you don't say anything, never give any permission, don't select specific males, just act aloof and unaware, then any penetration IS rape. It's not violent, but it is rape. In the dark they know you can't see them. If you say nothing, they don't know if you're mentally ill, stoned to oblivion, comatose, drunk, a zombie, etc. You're a body without a mind, and if a man penetrates and ejaculates inside said body, then you were raped for real. And there's about 30 of them on a typical night. All safe and legal.

Your not the only one. I'm a male and I have these fantasies too. I don't think it's possible to make it happen though.

Many have these fantasies. It's exciting to some to think that someone would break all laws and convention to ravish—or in this case, ravage—them. It makes them feel desirable and "important" on some level. But it's very dangerous to put oneself in harm's way to fulfill such a fantasy. Don't do it. You may regret it.

Papergirl wrote:There is nothing wrong with you. Rape fantasy is very common. Lots of women have this fantasy. However, it's a different story when you want to act on it for REAL (as you point out). I might be able to offer some advice to make your life a little safer (and perhaps more enjoyable). I was in the same situation as you. Since literally puberty, I was extremely aroused by the fantasy of being used for a man's gratification. In my fantasy, however, there was not harm, injury, or force used. It's more like what you would expect from a male who takes advantage of a sleeping girl that he's careful not to wake up. I dabbled in role play, but it seemed more comical than sexy. So I knew that if I was going to act on this, it would have to be for "real". "Real" meaning that the male had to think he's gratifying himself with my body either against my will or without my awareness.

So in my quest for this satisfaction, I discovered adult theater sex. No one goes to an adult theater to watch the porn movie. They go to get off on the crossdressers that go there for sex. The men are straight, but in the near pitch black darkness of an adult theater, anything that remotely feels female will get them off big. So when an actual woman is there, these guys go nuts. And if said woman makes her vagina available, they absolutely MUST have it. If you don't say anything, never give any permission, don't select specific males, just act aloof and unaware, then any penetration IS rape. It's not violent, but it is rape. In the dark they know you can't see them. If you say nothing, they don't know if you're mentally ill, stoned to oblivion, comatose, drunk, a zombie, etc. You're a body without a mind, and if a man penetrates and ejaculates inside said body, then you were raped for real. And there's about 30 of them on a typical night. All safe and legal.

That does sound like it would really work, but I'm 17? Does that not matter> And what about std's and $#%^?

It might do, depending on where you live. If you lived where I'm from (UK), you could indulge this fantasy as much as you liked. But perhaps you're under the age of consent in your jurisdiction.

It works very well for me. The kind of male who frequents an adult theater hoping for an opportunistic sexual encounter is exactly the kind of male who would steal an orgasm from a drunk, drugged, unconscious, or otherwise incapacitated woman in a desolate park at midnight. In an adult theater you ARE that woman in the dark. And it works much better if you play up the part by acting unaware, aloof, or even unconscious. So in an adult theater you are not only getting REAL rape, but you are getting it from the REAL deal type male. If you do this, you really should bring a male companion with you (who should remain "undercover" as just one of the guys there), just in case things get a little too heated for you.

As for being 17, it's up to the jurisdiction whether you can legally go in. Here in Canada the legal age of unrestricted sexual consent is 16. The drinking age is 19. So as long as there is no alcohol in the establishment, they cannot turn you away, or they would be committing an act of gender discrimination (considered a "hate crime" in Canada). Also in Canada it's legal to have public sex. So having sex in an adult theater (considered a public place) is not illegal.

In Toronto there is another option for women with this particular fetish. It's called a "rape room", and it's essentially an adult theater without the movie, and with couches and beanbag chairs instead of theater seats. Very dark inside, nearly pitch black. And the kind of male that hangs out there waiting for a female to enter, is exactly the guys who comb the back alleys and deserted public parks at midnight on the remote change of finding unconscious vagina. On a typical Sunday the rape room gets about 5-8 women (and nearly 100 men). And because they don't serve alcohol, there is the occasional teenage girl there.

Is it wrong that I'm finding this quite titillating? Especially the thought of doing that to a teenage girl. I would hate to do that to an unwilling woman, but if I knew she had gone somewhere to seek it because she had a rape fetish I wouldn't hold back, and I would ensure I got exactly what I wanted.

I don't see a major ethical issue here, but I would highlight the obvious health risks.

On grindr people often post rape type requests, including teens. I wonder if there is a straight equivalent to that?

skivvies- I think if you saw the right guy, you wouldn't care. And for me, I don't care if a lady says she wants it. It's not gonna make me think, oh my god she just said she wanted it. Plus somebody can't overthink something too much, so I think what you are asking is that perhaps you haven't seen anybody worthy of having sex with you, otherwise you'd be saying I saw this one guy the other day yada yada yada. But whatever.

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I would think twice about being hurt. Nobody truly wants to be hurt (but I wouldn't go through life worrying about that because as a guy, guys get in scuffles sometimes), and if you're hurt on a regular basis, you'd start to get very angry and wouldn't put up with it.