My thoughts are loud and panicky

Hi there,

This is my first thread here and unfortunately I'm not the best at describing things, so please bare with me =]
I am a 17 year old female, i don't suffer from panic attacks or any other mental disorder that i know of, but my brain randomly goes into panic mode. It is not that i am panicking about anything, i am perfectly calm only a little confused as to what is happening to me. While in this panic mode my thoughts sound as if i am yelling, its very loud and panicky, what i think and read just does not sound right to me even though i am in a perfectly good mood.

My thoughts and feelings during this panic mode don't match up, i could be thinking that it is a lovely day, but my thought in my head is the same tone as if the world were coming to an end, but i don't feel that way. My thoughts are normal, its just the tone of them that doesn't make scene. I've noticed that this usually happens while i am on the computer, i would say it has probably happened around 25 times within 2 years, and also, during the times it has happened, i have not been stressed or worried about anything.

Does anyone else suffer from this or does anyone know what this is?? I'm so confused as to what this could be!

Hi, Murk3! I think it might be possible for anxiety to manifest itself that way even if you feel numb or if you don't feel very anxious. I'm not an expert or anything though, so if this really bothers you, you should talk to a doctor. Please feel free to come here any time!

I have exactly the same thing, but its been hard to find a medical term for it or anything, it happens to me completely randomly, but sometimes when I am thinking really hard on a test or something it happens randomly then too. Its like if i over stress my mind in the right way it seems to happen though. But ya, the whole deal where my thoughts get really loud like in a O GOD THE END IS NIGH!!! like a cacophony of yelling racing thoughts, but there still normal thoughts and I'm still not panicking or anything myself. They just have this loud tone to them. But after ten minutes or so the weird loudness ebbs away and it goes to normal thoughts. It may be hereditary too, my mother has mentioned the same kinds of things sometimes happening to her as well. And I'm an 18 year old male if there's anything with age.

Hi Murk3, I experience the same thing too. I am 25 year old female and its been happening since i was a kid. Not the same frequency as you've had it over the past 2 yrs though. More like a couple of times a year. Its hard to say its definitely the same thing because i have so much trouble understanding what it is and even finding the words to describe the feeling, but as you've described it sounds pretty much like what happens to me.

It usually comes out of nowhere for me and lasts a couple of minutes. It can range from mildly annoying to being quite intense and making me worried and freaking out a little coz i think its not going to stop. The way i described it to my friend in the past is it feels like a lady is screaming my thoughts. It usually happens when i am alone and its quiet, I cant remember a time when it has happened when there have been people or noises around me. Sometimes if I say something aloud it seems to stop but then if i go quiet again the thoughts will be loud again. Most of the time it goes away without me thinking about it but it happened for quite a while the other day and really got to me because my head started to hurt so that's why i googled it...and ended up here.

I know I haven't helped solve your question at all but i thought that by describing what happens to me it might make you feel better knowing someone else gets the same thing. I felt that when i read your post. I have no history of mental problems or panic attacks either. I've never really talked about it with people because i have no idea how to explain it. Saying there are voices in my head is wrong because they aren't voices, its just my thoughts that are louder and bit more angrier than usual and sort of echoey. I thought maybe it could be something to do with being tired and the brain's way of saying "alright, had enough, go to bed" but no idea....

Good luck with finding out more about it. If i find anything i'll post it on here....

I have the exact same problem. I've found it comes on only when I'm alone, often when I'm on the computer or playing the piano or doing mindless things like laundry--things where my mind can wander. I've recently found that what helps me is finding someone to talk to, right away. That way, I can speak out loud and then there aren't any thoughts in my head. It's worked for me so far! Good luck =)

Hi,

i am so glad someone else was able to describe what i have not been able to for so long. i can remember having this issue as far back as pre-school. i just had an episode and realized i have the internet now. haha. i too have had to talk out loud to get it to stop. sometimes when i was in high school, i had to call my girlfriend at the time cuz no one was around. sometimes when i wasnt able to talk to another person...i had to try and speak out loud by myself...which kinda sounds crazy right there. lol. for the most part, i can cope with this, but i wonder if it really has anything to do with a deeper issue. i have been diagnosed with a few disorders...one of them anxiety. honestly thats my most noticeable one. most people can never tell that i have issues. so i refrain from speaking about it...to spare myself the humiliation. im so relieved, yet almost saddened to hear that others have this same issue.

the time that these things happen are very random, so it almost makes it impossible to have a brain examined while the episode is current. sometimes it will happen every other day...and there has also been a time frame of about a year or so that i didnt even have an episode occur. when i talk to someone professionally the next time, i will get answers for myself and everyone with this issue. please refer back to this periodically. i will post an update. ima get to the bottom of this.

i've had the same problem since i was like 10 years old. im 23 now.

when i try to go to bed and everything is quiet, a noise starts to build that turns to a voice yelling and then endless yelling voices in a busy room that gets worse the more i think about it. id have to turn on the tv or something to distract me until i was so tired that sleep would come quickly. i did poorly in school from a lack of sleep. i got better sleep in class then i could at home.

i found the sound of the shower or other running water to be extremely peaceful. so much so that i would fall asleep in the shower and wake up when the water went cold. i'd turn the shower down very low to make the hot water last as long as possible and i'd be in there for several hours before it went cold. this ended up really pissing off my dad. eventually i started turning the shower on to cold and laying on the floor until my dad would knock and ask me what i was doing.

i continued doing this for years until at one point i had sleeping bags and blankets and pillows in the bathroom and i'd take my cats into the bathroom to keep me company and id run the shower all night

i tried recording the shower and playing it on my computer and editing the sound to have more bass or more treble or anything i could do to make it sound more real. and it worked for a while but eventually i started to notice the transition when it would repeat and it would wake me up throughout the night.

when i moved out into an apartment with my friends i would have the shower on a lot. my roommates and my girlfriend and my friends would always look at me like im crazy and try to tell me how much water im wasting. and whenever i'd get in a fight or argument, i'd retreat to my bathroom and turn on the shower and lay down. it was definitely hard to get my girlfriend to ever lay in the bathroom with me. im surprised she was able to put up with me for as long as she did

when i got my own place i left the shower on whenever i was home. it's a good thing i didn't have a water bill

now im back living with my dad and currently use a website with recordings of shower noises that repeat on a website called freesound. i use 4 recordings all at different lengths so they repeat at different times its harder for me to memorize the pattern like i used to with my own recordings. the real deal is still way better but i have to do something that wont make my dad shoot me when he sees the bills

i think all of you are lucky that you can say something out loud or talk to someone to get rid of it. for me the yelling will build as soon as the silence returns. i suggest you find some kind of "white noise" to distract you from the yelling. whatever works for you. rain, ocean, static, whales, music, tv.

i found this thread while trying to research the problem after it just happening to me again about an hour ago. so far all the advice that has been given on other websites is that it is anxiety related or has something to do with schizophrenia. i was told that my grandfather was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic and i know that he had a really bad stroke sometime in his 50's.

Hey everyone,

I am so relieved that other people experience this, I have had such a hard time explaining this to people, and no one seems to understand.

For me, it happens every couple months. I remember getting the first episode clearly when I was around 10 and I am now 22, still getting them.

It's usually late at night, and if I have spent a lot of time on a computer, or focusing on something. It especially happens if there is a repeating sound or song. The feeling I get is more like, every single little sound in the house (furnace, air conditioning, a clock) seems like its yelling at me (I know this sounds odd..). The sound of my breathing even making me crazy, and it just seems like everything in my head is screaming. I always have to lay down in complete silence, wait a few minutes and it will slowly disappear.

I have never been able to explain this to people, and I always feel like I sound like some crazy person. (Which I probably do). If anyone has any responses, or any idea what this could be/how to make this easier to deal with or get rid of it, please respond! I'm so happy I found people who experience something similar to me.

Murk3 wrote:...my brain randomly goes into panic mode.... though i am in a perfectly good mood.
My thoughts and feelings during this panic mode don't match up,..
Does anyone else suffer from this or does anyone know what this is?? I'm so confused as to what this could be!

Hi Murk3, before the last year and a half i knew very little about mental health and mental disorders. It actually has been a taboo all my life, the idea of seeing a psycholoog or a psychiatrist was the worst nightmare i could imagine..however..i have been seeing one for the last year and a half and i am beginning to realize how little we know about things.
for example, many disorders happen within a spectrum, from a very mild form to a very extreem.
also having episodes of something does not mean that we have that illness, but that a combination of factors come together and trigger something within us, to which our mind reacts.

since childhood and maybe enhanced by family problems i always talked to myself. This was my way of coping with reality and this was normal to me.. as i grew older and triggered by other circunstances, this feature of myself grew to behave against me, i was upset at myself, i was not performing or achieving as it was expected etc.

i found slowly my balance again...but for the third time now in my 50´s, the problem came back
with other caracteristics. ..the sound in my ears can be very annoying.. i was told of CAPD which seems to be related to aspergers.
i would say, do not be afraid of to find out...now it is controlable, it can be triggered by things that you suppressed.

Hi, I'm 13 and I have had this since I can remember.
I used to think its normal and that everyone has it. That it was a sign of stress or something. A few days ago I was silently walking to my bus stop to got to school when I once again started having the panicking voices in my head. When I got to school I told my best friend about it and asked if she had ever had it and as I was expecting a "yes" or "of course, everyone does", she said no and didn't understand when I tried to explain. I asked some more people but noone understood so I thought that maybe I'm just bad at explaining it. This morning I had the same thing again. So while eating breakfast I told my mother about it and she said she had never had it. She told me that if it really bothers me I should go to school phsyciatrist.

I only get it maybe a few times a year or something, once a month maximum. Just like everyone else it only accurs when I'm alone and it's completly silent. I also get it a lot when it's cold.

Since no-one else I know of has this I got worried that something is wrong with me since I'm not very usual anyways in terms of being a girl.
It's nice to know I'm not the only one. If I find anymore info I'll be sure to post it