Survive

*song lyrics*
Survive

Somewhere between happy, and total f*#king wreck
Feet sometimes on solid ground, sometimes at the edge
To spend your waking moments, simply killing time
Is to give up on your hopes and dreams, to give up on your...

Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are

An obvious disinterest, a barely managed smile
A deep nod in agreement, a status quo exile
I shirk my obligations, I miss all your deadlines
I excel at quitting early, and f*#king up my life

Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are

All smiles and sunshine,
a perfect world on a perfect day
Everything always works out,
I have never felt so f*#king great
All smiles and sunshine,
a perfect world on a perfect day
Everything always works out,
I have never felt so great

But
Life isn't like this
Life isn't like this
Life isn't like this
Life isn't like this
(Life isn't like this) Oh, Life isn't like this
(Life isn't like this) Life isn't like this
(Life isn't like this)
Are we verging on an answer,
Or f*#king up our...

Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are

(Who we are)
It's what makes us who we are
(Who we are)
Makes us who we are
(Who we are)
It's what makes us who we are
(Who we are)

This is very beautiful Marie You're good at posting meaningful lyrics! I usually express myself through lyrics, and Lin does as well. Wishing you the best.

*song lyrics*
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I'm not

lifelongthing wrote: Marie.

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We are the children you reject and disregard
These aching cries come from the bottom of our hearts
You can't disown us now, we are your own flesh and blood
And we don't disappear just because your eyes are shut

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Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello, I am your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello
I am the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello, I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday

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I am
a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints
but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see these scars
I am
what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got

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I got a heart full of pain,
head full of stress
handfull of anger,
held in my chest
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat and tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear

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Do you have anyone to talk to about your struggles? Do you and Cassandra communicate well? Is there anything we can do to help you?

*song lyrics*
I can't escape winding down these halls
Hard to find a place where there are no walls
And no lines begging me to cross
Only straight ahead better move along

Like Clockwork
I commit the crime
I pretend to be
everything they like
I've been here before
I've seen you before

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And if strength is born from heartbreak
Then mountains I could move
And if walls could speak I'd pray
That they would tell me what to do

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I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't change this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

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Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me?

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Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the dumbest of them all
Insecurities keep growing
Wasted energies are flowing
Anger, pain and sadness beckon
Panic sets in in a second
Be aware it's just your mind
And you can stop it anytime

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I'm glad you're able to express yourself a little on here. Is there anything I can do to help you though?

*song lyrics*

I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense

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I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense

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I know I've been gone for what seems like forever
But I'm here now waiting
To convince you that I'm not a ghost or a stranger
But closer than you think

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So sit back and watch as we

Spin out of control
Spin out of control
Try to recover, but collide with each other
We spin out of control

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Bring them all here
hard to hide a hundred girls in your hair
it won't be fair if I hate her

you can go now
You're already in there

I'm already in circles and circles and circles again
the girl's in circles and circles got to stop spinning
---- Tori Amos - Cloud on my tongue

I'm sorry if you feel like your system or your life is kind of colliding and spinning out of control. I may be misreading you (lyrics can be difficult that way, I'm sorry). From what I've heard from you, you seem like you want to be someone and somewhere else - that is a very strong and upsetting feeling to have. I hope you realize that we all care for you and your system here and appreciate you for who you are.

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*song lyrics*
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way

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Cassandra, host, 21:

me: sing

Cassandra, host, 21:

me: sing

Cassandra, host, 21:

me: sing

Cassandra, host, 21:

me:

That must be intensely frustrating and hurt - to not be able to communicate with her in a way that makes sense to the both of you. Maybe have her translate the meaning behind the songs you sing/write - they are obviously picked carefully? Have you tried telling her that singing is your (seemingly only, if I gather correctly?) way of communication and that you are indeed trying?

This must be hard for you. I'm sorry you're going through this. I'm here if there's anything I can do. I'm so glad you shared this with me / us. Thank you.