Survive

*song lyrics*

I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense


I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense

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Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up



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I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got


I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make sense


I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't change this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored


No!
Hear me out now!
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not!
Right now!
Hear me out now!
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not!
Right now!

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I really hope Cassandra can hear you out so you can stop feeling so distressed. You communicate a lot and that is great! I'm glad you get to express yourself here, and I hope Cassandra will see this and understand some of your frustrations and hurt feelings as well. We care for you here, I hope you can see that

lifelongthing wrote:Cassandra can hear I. Cassandra see I as

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lifelongthing wrote: I is

radio

lifelongthing wrote:to Cassandra.

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I'm sorry she looks at you as a sort of radio because of your singing. Hopefully when she sees what you have written here she will take the time to listen more closely and hear what you have to say about yourself and your experiences in the songs. You deserve that I'm here if there's anything I can do.

lifelongthing wrote:you do thing. you listen to I.

I'm glad you feel I'm listening to you - because I really do care and want to hear what you have to say Feel free to send me a PM anytime or write to me on here anywhere. I'd like to try to get to know you better, if you're comfortable with that. You can answer or not answer anything you want How old are you? 16,17, 18,19,20,21,22,23,24? Are you a boy or a girl? How are you feeling today? Happy, sad, excited, hurt, friendly, upset, something else?

lifelongthing wrote:I'm comfortable with that.

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I'm Happy to

I will definitely try to help you

Thank you for sharing that with us!

So you're upset and confused (and happy too!) and something else. That's great that you were able to express that! Are you angry? Depressed? Do you know what you're confused about or is it just in general? Are you confused or upset about Cassandra or the others? About being believed? About all the fighting and the upset in your system? It's kind of hard knowing what words you might need but I'm trying to write out some of the things I think it might be so that you can choose from those words if you need some help. I might not get it right though and I'm sorry about that. You're doing great writing out your own words too though!

lifelongthing wrote:something else = confused

I confused in general

I upset about I

I upset about Cassandra

I upset about not being believed

You're doing great help I

You're doing great writing words

I'm so confused in general. If you're having a hard time focusing, the world may seem pretty confusing and/or scary. I'm sorry you feel like that. Hopefully with time it'll get better

I'm also very sorry Cassandra is having a hard time believing you. I saw in another thread that you mentioned her finding more alters than just you as well - is she having a hard time accepting them too? If so, maybe try to not take it personally (which isn't easy, I know! I don't mean to belittle what you're feeling at all!). Maybe it just hurts for her to realize how things are.

I see you're also upset about yourself. About being different? About being unfocused? About just being who you are? That's a hard feeling to live with, and I hope you get more comfortable with yourself in time. You deserve that

I'm glad I'm able to help a little bit?

How are you feeling today? Happy, sad, excited, hurt, friendly, upset, something else?

I really do care about you, I hope you can feel a little better knowing/seeing that