A bit of a surprise..

lifelongthing wrote:It hurt cause I like my name and it's been my name since I was made. I can't help that and it was mine long before we were on here.

I like your name too! And of course it's been your name for a long time. Like I said before, sometimes we make mistakes and can't think clearly when it comes to all this. Like with me and Jake. I even knew his name years and years ago, LOOOONG before we came on here (although I didn't know who/what he was, thought he was just my imagination), but even then, seeing that other people on here had similar names to him made me think I'd made it up. That's pretty silly, right? Fortunately he's a very patient guy! Anyway, I'm just trying to say that sometimes people don't think logically and say/do things that can hurt. Well done for not getting put off, and for keeping trying. And I'll bet the other Cassie will be delighted there's someone else with the same name as her, not upset at all

Yeah.. I'm glad you believe in him now though. Patience is a good thing like that. Nin's SO (I think it was her but I'm not sure) asked if my name was Cassie and I said yes. I don't know her. It's weird having new people in our life that I haven't seen. I like the cat though.

IT'S LIKE WE'RE TWINS!! i know we're not but it's still cool like that!
hi cassie!! hehe that's kinda funny. i'm glad you shared your name with everyone! and i'm glad you didn't give up! i'm sorry we made nin not believe you thou... we believe you thou! and you're here with others who believe you! i know nin will believe you soon if not now! so it's all good!
it can be weird having new people you haven't seen before around you and stuff. specialy if they know about you but you don't know about them. but i heard nin's SO is really nice. and it gets better after you get to know the new places and people a bit and stuff.

I'm glad you didn't get upset. Yeah, it's freaky when they're like "You're Cassie, right?" and no one's ever known you're even DID and it's like how did you find out my name, what's happening? So uncomfortable.. Leo says she's nice so I trust her. Leo is trustworthy. Nice to meet you too Cassie. Me and Jacob are siblings/twins kinda so nice to have a name sibling too hehe. And yeah, she better believe it now.. I finally found out how to put it under our posts too so it doesn't just say "female".

it's nice to meet you too! yeah leo sounds like a good guy. and nin's SO sounds like a good person too. it might be weird at first but i bet it'll be nice to be out and not have to hide. i know i like being able to be out and wear what i want and act like me and get called by my name. wow you fixed the signatur? i had a hard time with it. so i just let cassandra do it all. i'm glad you got your name up there now thou!

Leo's a girl, but yeah she is. It took me a long time to get to fix it. I'm not that used to this computer thing. Yeah it'll be nice not to hide but it's weird. She's laying on my arm now, hasn't realized we've switched I think. She can't see my face. It's very very weird. I know she's nice but it's still.. weird. Maybe me and Jacob can get to know her some time.. I need more time though... I'm still getting used to coming out of hiding and getting used to seeing the year we're in now.. Guess you guys here know how it feels. I'm happy someone can call me by my name. That feels real good.

lifelongthing wrote:
Thanks Marie

*song lyrics*
If you see me, please just walk on by,
walk on by.
Forget my name and
I'll forget it too.
Failed attempts at living simple lives,
simple lives
Are what keep me coming back to you.



What we are is the sum of 1000 lies.
What we know is almost nothing at all.
But we are what we are till the day we die,
Or till we don't have the strength to go on.
Till we don't have the strength to go on.

(Tori Amos- Bells for her. This is one of Nin's and mine's favourite songs.)
Can't stop what's coming
Can't stop what is on its way

And through the walls they made their mudpies
I've got you mind I said she said I've you voice
I said you don't need my voice girl you have your own
But you never thought it was enough of
So they went years and years
Like sisters blanket girls
Always there through that and this
There's nothing we cannot ever fix I said

Can't stop what's coming
Can't stop what is on it's way
Bells and footfalls and soldiers and dolls

And now I speak to you are you in there
You have her face and her eyes
But you are not her
And we go at each other
Like blankets who can't find
Their thread and their bare

Can't stop loving
Can't stop what is on its way
And I see it coming and It's on its way

*song lyrics*

Everything has it's season
Everything has it's time
Show me a reason and I'll soon show you a rhyme

Cats fit on the windowsill
Children fit in the snow
Why do I feel I don't fit in
anywhere I go?

Rivers belong where they can ramble
Eagles belong where they can fly-y-y-y
I've got to be
where my spirit can run free
Gotta find my corner
Of the sky

Every man has his daydream
Every man has his goal
People like the way dreams have of sticking to the soul

Rain comes after thunder
Winter comes after fall
Sometimes I think I'm not after
anything at all

Rivers belong where they can ramble
Eagles belong where they can fly-y-y-y
I've got to be
where my spirit can run free
Gotta find my corner
Of the sky

And maybe some misty day
You'll waken and find me gone
And far away you'll hear me singing to the dawn

You'll wonder if I'm happy there
A little more than I've been
And the answer will come back to you
like laughter in the wind

Rivers belong where they can ramble
Eagles belong where they can fly-y-y-y
I've got to be
where my spirit can run free

Gotta find my corner
Of the sky

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Beautiful.
Brooke Fraser - Scarlet

Middle of nowhere
Finally you can breathe
Nobody knows your name
It's easier

Shut your eyes tightly
Clench your fists 'til they almost bleed
Cautiously, lightly
Gently expose what's underneath

And all you feel now
Is the scarlet in the day
Even if it's real
You can't stay...

So there you go
You're gone for good
There you go
You're gone for good

Your mind is swollen
From months of thought without release
They've taken their toll on you
And this very moment
Of timid and fragile honesty
Is precious and rare and fleeting

And all you feel now
Is the scarlet in the day
And even if it's real
You can't stay...