Integration & eye colour

This may seem like a silly question, but we've been wondering..

For those of you who have alters that have different eye colours - if you were to integrate, which eye colour would you end up keeping? We have alters with (at least) the following colours: icy blue, blue, very dark blue, grey/green with yellow spots & what seems to be hazel.

An alter asked me the question (though none of us work towards integration, but all the same - I'm just happy we're communicating and that she's curious) and I really don't have an answer Maybe you guys do?

- Nin

IDK, but would be interesting to find out.

lifelongthing wrote:We have alters with (at least) the following colours: icy blue, blue, very dark blue, grey/green with yellow spots & what seems to be hazel.

We're the same. I figured out the light blue, icy blue, see-through blue ones are usually the hurt littles. The darker blues are usually the older ones (teenagers). The greys and greens and yellows I don't know yet.

I don't know what will happen permanently to our eye color if we fully integrate. Maybe it is just one of those wait and see things. Should be interesting.

wow.....this whole post just blew me away lol I have always noticed variations in my eye color and never knew why

We're the same. I figured out the light blue, icy blue, see-through blue ones are usually the hurt littles. The darker blues are usually the older ones (teenagers). The greys and greens and yellows I don't know yet.

That's really neat that you've found a pattern of sorts! With us it seems completely random. I realize it probably isn't though. Guess we'll figure more out in time

I have always noticed variations in my eye color and never knew why

We used to be the same. People would regularly comment on how our eye colour had changed and Nin would always be puzzled since she herself had never noticed any variation (considering she hadn't been out at the time). The fun things that happen with DID, right

Thanks for the answers!

- Lin / Nin

I have no idea - but your post reminds me that I've never known for sure what color my eyes were. They're kind of every colour! A hazel bit right around the pupil, then green, then a band of teal blue around the edge of the iris. In some lights I'm told they're blue. I once asked my sister - we were crossing a stream at the time - she turned around, looked at my eyes, and said, "They're orange" Always thought I just had multicolored eyes...

I'm not sure what color our eyes would be but chances are it'd end up brown. About half of us have brown or dark colored eyes while the rest have blue eyes. But it's the more dominant alters that have dark eyes so I feel that would take over for eye color. Who knows really though.

~Ani

Sara2012 wrote:I have no idea - but your post reminds me that I've never known for sure what color my eyes were. They're kind of every colour! A hazel bit right around the pupil, then green, then a band of teal blue around the edge of the iris. In some lights I'm told they're blue. Always thought I just had multicolored eyes...

Me too to all of the above! My husband tells me they change with the weather

Eye color is a hugely significant issue for my system. The DID mother tortured one of three sisters and me for having brown eyes, the color of some older child who hurt her, based on her ranting now recalled. I wasn't aware of any of this until last year. The other sisters, the mother, and her family had blue. The desire for blue eyes in Little John has always haunted me. It's shown up whenever I see light shining through dark blue glass. I used to describe it as becoming transfixed and feeling youngish. I posted a poem about the experience on this forum. But I think now it was actually dissociating as I remembered the exact moment when he went inside and I was created as his replacement.

The hair and eye color of my alters and me runs the gamut. Before the awareness of our DID, I tended to see hair/eye color as unimportant with limited categories. So brown/brown worked fine when filling out forms. Yet people now and then have referred to me as blond, or they've told me my eyes aren't really brown and I'm like, what!?

My alters won't look in the mirror, except Quato for a quick glance, so I thought I couldn't test whether the eyes change color for them. But I decided to look closely in the mirror today. I can't really see any plain brown, just a bunch of colors, definitely blues (which has never been so obvious before), some yellow, greens, grays. After this experiment Jonathan, who has claimed blue eyes and never backed down on that, suggested the alters can see their own eye colors because all of our colors are there. So he had been near when I was looking at the eyes so closely. I'm a little weirded by noticing that blue.

I had the overwhelming desire to color my hair blond and wear blue contact lenses years ago and I gave in to it, thinking it a ridiculous affectation but one I couldn't put aside. Given blond/blue matches Dan and he's been pushing us to use blonding shampoo since shortly after "reviving" last year, it seems as if he awoke around that time years ago and provided the influence, even if he continued to think himself deceased.

I've realized our personalities would blend with integration but something as fundamental as hair/eye color changing, even slightly, I hadn't even considered that.

Thank you for sharing Johnny-Jack, I really appreciate it.

I've realized our personalities would blend with integration but something as fundamental as hair/eye color changing, even slightly, I hadn't even considered that.

I think that is what was at the base of the alters question -- the fundamentals of us, where does it go and what happens? Interesting to ponder at least..

- Nin