Step forward,Therapy update

Hi All
My new Therapist gave me the long version of the DES test this evening.I will not know the outcome of the test until next session.My therapist will review the test with the senior psychiatrist.He did say that he is sure that I do not have Schizophrenia and that he believe I am dissociative.Also believe the the voices are cause by a dissociative disorder. So I am going to get a lable!Oh joy!
The good news is he wants to work on getting my system,life back under control and is putting the time into research and learn how to get at the problem.He does think I am the core person and not a host.It maybe a small step forward but it's a start and I/we feel we are now no longer in a static state.For what it is worth,for the first time in along time, our head has risen above the darkened waters and it' is a little easier to breath for a change.
Thomas
Watcheroflights

I'm so happy for you Thomas

I think about you everytime I come on these boards and wonder how you are doing. So glad to see you have a T who is willing to do lots of research and help you with what has been going on for you now for a long time.

Best wishes,

Bourbon

I'm glad to hear that you have a therapist who is open to the idea of your issues being caused by dissociation and that he is willing to put in time and research into helping you. That is wonderful. Very positive forward movement...

Let us know how you went with the DES when you get the results... Hope this is the start of some more good outcomes for you!

The good news is he wants to work on getting my system,life back under control and is putting the time into research and learn how to get at the problem.

Very good goal! Does this mean he doesn't have much experience with dissociative disorders? That's okay but it would be good to know where he's starting from.

He does think I am the core person and not a host.

I'm not sure what that means. It's possible it's not a significant comment.

It maybe a small step forward but it's a start and I/we feel we are now no longer in a static state.For what it is worth,for the first time in along time, our head has risen above the darkened waters and it' is a little easier to breath for a change.

This is very good news indeed. It's important for your and the others parts of you to feel that some help is on the way, both from an outside professional and from within.

Bourbon, salted lipstick, Johnny-Jack
Thanks for the kinds words of support.
This new therapist is starting from zero but he is telling me he is getting guidance from more experienced psychiatrist.
Johnny-Jack he had me doubting my own belief that I was the core person which was causing me great stress.
I am sorry for to all for my poor writing on posting but I was drained by the time this session was over. Talked about being raped by a group of boys when I was little was almost too much for me/us to handle. I/we were having flash backs big time. The good news is we did not totally freak out and start crying. I/we wanted too but I control us and kept it together. I talked some about hiding the system and as I was doing so Clair panicked and Thomas Lee got nervous. I could hear them saying do not talk about the system it must not be known to the outside world. I told this to the Therapist what was being said and he told us to not to worry he was there to help us all and this seemed to calm everyone down.
I/we feel tired as hell this morning but mentally I/we are feeling some relief. These maybe no more than an after session kick and peak but we needed it.
Once again I am sorry I have no words of advice for others at this time. I/ we just feel at this time being out of control as we are that we should not be telling anyone how to handle this issue since we are not doing a very good job of dealing with the beast ourselves.
We are cheering for and are having good thoughts of hope for those out here doing battle with the beast.
Regards
Thomas, Core, age 54
Clair, young teen
Thomas Lee, late teens, early twenties
Tommy, six years of age

I hope you continue to write about your therapy process here. I am not in therapy but consider it all the time. It makes me nervous since I had a bad psych experience as a kid. Finally convinced my mother to take me to see a shrink. Azel told me to do it. He told me to tell her everything when I got in there- about suicide, about abuse, about hearing voices. I was ready to dump it all out on the table and get help. I was 15. Mom took me, went in to see her first while I waited for 30 minutes of the hour long appointment. Then I was called in. My mom stayed, continued to dominate the whole thing. It was just mom talking about how everything is fine and how she is getting a divorce and I am just acting out and stressed and everything is fine. The shrink asked me one or two questions. I stared at the floor and gave monosylbil answers for both. That was it.

Then I got yelled at the whole way home how it was a waste of time and a waste of money and how I am so stupid and needy and ... it went on. I got yelled at for it for weeks.

I still can't bring myself to go in.

I love reading about other people's experiences with Ts. The good and the bad, I just want to know what is like to have someone actually listen to you.

Please continue to update, Watcher.

Watcheroflights that's great news I'm so pleased for you.

Ashesoflife, can you go see a psychiatrist on your own? It would be different then. The last one probably didn't ask you many questions because it would have been obvious you couldn't answer openly and honestly with you mum there. X