Doubting DID.. So many doubts

First, I've been away socializing all weekend & we are no doubt tired & some are angry they've been 'forced to endure company for so long'.

Second.. I forget my second point..

Thirdly, I'm doubting that I have DID after all..

How do I know that these 'people' living in my head & taking over my body is the result of DID, and not a delusional disorder?

Maybe it's all just a delusion..

How do I know its not skitzophreniea? I see things out of the corner of my eye. I sometimes think I hear people say something to have them say that they didn't say anything.. Am I just disassociating & trying to fill in the convocation gaps or am I hearing things? How would I know the difference?

How do you know the difference between body memories, conversion disorder & hallucinations?

How do you know the difference between recovered memories, flash backs & delusions?

Who am I. Why am I here. I find it hard to believe that the T's think I just have CPTSD/DID. I'm clearly 'crazy'. This is not normal.

I hate feeling like this. What if the T's have it wrong.. What if it is all a delusion & they're encouraging it by calling it DID?

I seem to be getting better & worse at the same time.. How is that possible?

So confused

i know exactly what you mean. its crazy that i have the identical thought sometimes. wait to see how many others do...
its part of the "situation normal"

when this hits us we stop asking all those questions and go for distraction. cause there is no way that any answer would be enough. in inner rebellion against truth is often a reaction to too much too hard inner work in a short period of time. it gets too much for the head and the reaction is a rejection of all that.
well, at least it is that way with us...
so just from our experience i would say, dont try to find answers. go eat some ice cream, do something fun.

Hi

Yes, it's part of "situation normal" for DID.

But, really it's part of "situation normal" for every aspect of our existence. Everyone, at some level or another, at one point or another in their lives asks themselves these same questions. It is the basis for every philosophical thought ever experienced, however brief. It is also the basis for the suffering that consumes every human, and the desire of every human being to achieve happiness.

DID makes these questions more palpable, more experiential, and harder to ignore. They interfere with the common delusion that the human race holds as being reality.

I don't think we should doubt where we are, or what we are experiencing. I think we should delve deep into the experience, continually questing for the quintessential truth of the experience. We should certainly not compare our experience to that of our neighbors, and judge ours lacking. Different is neither better nor worse, it is just... different.

Take care... Brett

I also have very similar thoughts, some exactly the same with same experiences. And sometimes I feel "yes I have DID no doubt about it", other times I think there is no way I have it, I am just somehow making this up. However, when I look back on things that have happened, rather I want to believe them or not, I no without a doubt that I have DiD. So I would say it is normal as well. The doubt is just truly annoying.

in schizophrenia they don't know what they are seeing or thinking doesn't make sense for what people expect of reality. someone with DID knows what is normal, but has these other issues. At least that is what that website on it said.. i think.

As an overthinking, overly existential mofo, a part of me has doubts too so I empathise very much.

Option 1: We're living in the matrix so it doesn't matter anyway
Option 2: Schizophrenia
Option 3: DID

What option feels right to you, and also what feels right to those other parts of you?

If the other parts say DID, maybe it's DID. I've yet to hear of a schizophrenic having issues with their delusions thinking they have DID and going to a DID forum for help

I would also add it's possible to have visual/aural delusions under stress and hypervigilance, without schizophrenia. I'd check into it if you were perfectly relaxed and experiencing delusions.

Sometimes Host gets totally freaked out about having DID and decides he's perfectly normal. Completely, totally, perfectly, exactly NORMAL. Nothing to see here folks, move along. Normal, normal, normal... Or he's got a brain tumor. Or he had a stroke. Or he has schizophrenia. Or Space aliens stole his brain. ANYTHING but DID.

It's because he's scared of losing control. That feels all WRONG. Hosts' jobs are to maintain control. When he doesn't he feels awful. Our T wants us to share control. That works really great except sometimes Host goes a little nuts and tries to grab it all back. Then he gets really mad at our T and says she doesn't know what she's doing. He argues with her forever. Then he says he's never going back to therapy. Drama, drama, drama. (I'm the teenager. I'm suppose to do the drama around here.)

Eventually Host calms down and shares control again. Then things get back to the real normal and life is pretty good.

It's going to be ok.

Iain

IainEtc wrote:(I'm the teenager. I'm suppose to do the drama around here.)

You can have some of my drama. Apparently I have more than enough.

Why would anyone make this up? Attention? Who the f*ck wants that kind of attention?

Laura and others

spacecake wrote:As an overthinking, overly existential mofo, a part of me has doubts too so I empathise very much.

Option 1: We're living in the matrix so it doesn't matter anyway
Option 2: Schizophrenia
Option 3: DID

The Matrix sounds about right. There are actually quiet a few people and scientist that believe we are living in some form of simulated reality.

ShawTrav wrote:
The Matrix sounds about right. There are actually quiet a few people and scientist that believe we are living in some form of simulated reality.

Yes Elon Musk was famously in the news recently for hoping we live in a simulation

http://www.digitaltrends.com/cool-tech/ ... imulation/