DID and work

Believe it or not, I am a solo musician who is building a pretty good name for himself. I had my breakdown three years ago and haven't been able to work since. I turned to music and thought I would finally make a go of a solo all original career.

It scares the hell out of me. Doing shows, meeting people, but I know and trust my system in this area, it's one place we all work really well together.

I have also started incorporating my DID into my work and act. It's become a way for me to do intense therapy inside, letting Alt's write and perform, and it has also brought some people to my shows who come and talk to me after and feel comfortable enough to share their painful stories....that's a pretty special gift I've been given (I'm obviously having a GOOD day today LMAO).

It's a unique situation and I can't explain how me make it work when in all other areas we are a shut-in.

i guess it's most easily summed up with, music has been there for me all my life. It's my oldest and dearest friend, it was my only family for more than a couple of decades. It told me the things I needed to hear, it let me share the emotions I had to get out. it is my lover, it is my everything.

So, I guess it's not a career when it's therapy you love. lol.

Because I don't work I can only relate this to school life. I find most of my quieter alters don't come out during school and it's often the louder ones which do. For example, my younger alter will often poke people and giggle and splash them with water etc. and just generally annoy people. And will talk A LOT about lots of random uninteresting or obvious things. One of my other alters will be rude and a bit aggressive and will often try to irritate the teacher, disrupt the class or just walk out. I find the only one who actually does any work there is me, which is probably why my grades aren't as high as they should be.