self-sabotage

I relate to self sabotage. Recently my FP and I had a fight because I thought she was hurting me and I knew I had to give her space before she'd be my best friend again. After about five days of space, I felt pretty confident she wouldn't leave my life and I was in high spirits...and then I felt I shouldn't be in a good mood because she may have left my life forever, so I spammed her with hundreds of texts begging her to leave me and then come back. I feel like I really sabotaged myself and the friendship naturally repairing itself over time.