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Sometimes i really hate (some) men! They can be so clingy and needy...

Like a guy i saw in the shop today...who i have already said "no" to go on a date with, but he still looks at me like how can you do that?

I am so annoyed especially at that person...
He speaks few words in english, and none in my language, so explaining is futile, he only wants to stir up a commotion to get more attention from me I HATE HIM!

It seems like he likes to have something to complain about...

He is a foreigner-i don`t talk to him since he is working behind a counter making food(never serving the counter-someone else does that).

So today he gave me a look

You know when you can tell what they are thinking kinda look


The point is that i TRIED to explain to him that i didn`t want to date a muslim because i am not religious.

I don`t know how much of my polite and kind rejection he understood or if he only wants to make drama?

Last time i visited the shop, it seemed like he had understood the term "friendship"..


But then today he seemed to be on the question/accusation side of "its because i am a muslim". Like i am some whitey who doesn`t like muslim`s.


He works all day in the shop-he goes out clubbing(since he invited me to a club).

Believe me i have tried everything in my power to make him feel "Ok" about my rejection, but the guy needs to understand the risk he faces when HE asks someone out for a date.


And stop making such a fuss about it.

I hate the way i am now somehow responsible for his psyche just because we had a talk outside the shop that day, and if i make a look back then i am the muslim hater...

Yeah put me right in the corner!

The other people who work in that shop i get or have got along with good before...

i am not sure what he has told them- i hate that even more because when he is alone with them he can say all kinds of things...

i tried to explain to him that i want to date someone with the same non religious view as me, and i tried to explain that i don`t even want to date seriously religious norwegians.


So to say to him that its not because of his race, but more an ethical choice.

I know that norwegian women wanting to marry a muslim would have to convert to islam, since i am an atheist i don`t want to convert into any religion!

I told him i was an atheist-but to be frank with you it didn`t seem like he cared so much about it or what i was trying to say to him. Either because he didn`t understand or because he didn`t care???


So if he has gone to his friends and just said "she didn`t want to date me because i am a muslim", then his co-workers will of course take that in a negative light, and maybe not treat me as friendly as they have in the past?


And of course they believe him because they work sooo many hours with him, and because i am norwegian and therefore must hate all muslims....

I had a co worker who fell in love with a muslim, they got pregnant and his family didn`t accept her, so she had to raise their son alone.


Then i have a younger sister who got beaten up by her muslim boyfriend.


I dated a muslim doctor once until i found out he was married.

We never dated seriously, one day he just came up to me at work and started to criticise me!?


There was a norwegian girl who was killed by a muslim in London.


I just hate that misunderstanding/misconception or just lack of knowledge, that can make some muslims arrogant and self righteous.



He hasn`t shown any sign of physical aggression to me, but i can sense his passive aggression...

Last time i went to the shop i bought some food and for the first time i tipped to the shop(we don`t normally tip in shops in Norway, they had a cup on the counter, i normally don`t order food there)

Today i only went in there to buy some small stuff and go again-its like a fast food restaurant+video hire+ some other small stuff.
The boy at the counter (who is the son of the shop owner, the guy who wanted to date me is not in his family), looked at the cup like he cheekily wanted some more tip..


That annoyed me...you know why?


Because i think he or the other son who also works there, heard about the chef who tried to ask me out that night(outside the shop).

The chef works all day from about 1pm to 23pm

and i think he works every day(they are also open at sundays), so the guys are bound to get depressed.

There are other stores in the neigbourhood that is run by muslim too, and i recognize that same "working depression" there too.

I advised the guy in the other shop to get a temporary who could work in his shop for a week so he could take a vacation, but he didn`t want to do that.

(So yes they do sometimes complain to me about their long working hours-but they never do anything about it). All the family in this shop (where the chef is), has been on vacations, but never the chef.

I only go in there to buy some stuff!!!!!!

The shopkeeper in the other shop(the one without the chef), used to complain every time i went to shop, he looks like he is really depressed. He is married and works with his wife in weekdays, but his wife isn`t there on sundays when i normally (went) go there to shop-i try to use it as rear as i can after something happened there....

He complained and being friendly as i am i tried to help him but then one day he came up behind me and did a body grinding whilst pretending as if he was just walking by me.


I felt violated.