how do you deal with a crazy abusive mother

[angela9922]

and no one believes shes crazy or abusive or even cares...it seems people get off on it and just laugh and let it happen more....


I keep thinking….the narcissist/abuser can’t get to me anymore…I CAN defeat the narcissist. I felt this way today after having a very rare kind of confidence….something you cant possess after being abused broken down for SO LONG- esp if your abuser is your own mother..an old woman—yo u think…but shes just an old woman…how can SHE hurt me so badly and do so much EVIL to me. I wanted to see her as weak…unable to hurt me…powerless…unable to be so evil..yet I was wrong again. Before coming, she seemed OK but being a narcissist/sociopath and SO EVIL I can only imagine what she had planned. Usually she does something CRAZY, threatens to leave then…drives me crazy…then leaves then comes back or has me calling her to come back…basically causes insane chaos to destroy make me suffer berates me puts me down…she is a mental case…she Isnt just psychotic crazy she is possessed in my opinion…she doesn’t seem human or even sociopathic…she just seems POSSESSED—there to destroy me non-stop no matter what the consequences. She coems to help me ‘clean’ but really it’s a way for her to assert her ‘dominance power control’ over me her 35 year old daughter….ive seen abuse heard of it…but she is the WORST ive ever heard of---close to a sadistic cult leader type or something very deranged evil on another level…. I felt confidence b/c I had gone to Disney this weekend and felt GOOD strong despite having a bad experience with the person I went with—no worries though—I still felt good and of COURSE the narcissist sensed this…like a demon she just KNOWS. When she heard I went ot diseny im sure it BOILED her evil blood…anything I do with causes me ANY KIND OF HAPPINESS causes her to go ballistic/psychotic. She is a PAKISTANI IMMIGRANT doing this to me American born daughter….it’s crazy. She comes weekly or every other week to BERATE me bring me down terrorize me and in the past it wasn’t that bad…but lately its gotten MUCH WORSE….

She has done the WORST ot me in the past and I cant get into it…she is a sadistic monster from hell…evil worse than satan may God destroy her wicked soul…..so I come back from Disney and she has agreed to come help me clean…good ithought…now I live alone, five cats and almost NO friends…no support just alone and anyone in my life oddly is ABUSIVE to me and its scary….its a weird scary parallel universe thing…I just SEEK out positivity love and only get ABUSE TORMENT. Im also beautiful and most people are extremely hateful of meor jealous wher ei live or dislike me out of jealousy….so im stuck having to deal with the hatred of others….i NEED help cleaning and I need someone to come over ot my place to appease my cats so I let her come…but not without a hefty horrific price…. Her coming over to berate harass terrorize torture me on another level…. I come back to my house seeing all the windows open…im sure she did this for a reason—because she was hoping to start an altercation with me and let the neighbors hear so now I can be more hated by my neighbors…she is like the most infectious virus from hell infecting and destroying EVERYTHING in her evil wicked path when it comes only to ME…not to others just ME….it makes it for the WORST kind of sinister abuse/…so every other evil human can say well shes nice to ME so ###$ YOU! Devious demonic monster isn’t the word for evil filth like her….she is a 60 year old old lady!! She comes to torment terrorize me to extremes and is not happy unless she is getting a reaction out of me pissing me off tormenting me –she is serial killer evil and she is very capable of murder yet not a soul knows that or cares…to let her in my house is literally letting the devil inside but I have little choice…I have NO friends and FEW who come over and my cats NEED guests and people…anyone does? I cant make friends where I live because there are mostly jerks around who treat me badly too because im beautiful and they are awful people…..
So I came back from Disney to witness the windows all open….then my sister calls and my mother is trying HARD to avoid having my sister talk to me—they both aer evil and want NO happiness for me even conversations with my evil sister…BOTHER HER…I had to FIGHT to talk to my sister who also ddint want to talk to me—these monsters are so devious and evil they only seek to make me suffer destroy me horrendously torture me….so I get on the phone with my sister…I close the door to my bedroom because I had maple syrup on my pants and had to change them….as im talking to mysister that wicked crazy demonic woman…who despite all her torture and evil im STILL NICE TO AND TREAT HER WELL---comes to my door and begins harassing me saying “open the door…tell her I need to talk to her…tell her not to hang up”…I said ok…then she comes 10 seconds later screaming….DID YOU HANG UP WITH HER???I NEED TO TALK TO HER!!! I said shes on the phone hold on…im not done yet…then this demon woman comes again and begins harassing me again….i said…HOLD ON…im on the phone?!! She said…YOU BETTER NOT GO THROUGH MY PHONE!!! YOU DID LAST TIME I KNOW IT…..!!! GIVE ME MY PHONE!!! And begins throwing a fit going crazy abusive psychotic…insane nutcase…screaming at me and BANGING on the door like crazy with her broom saying OPEN THE DOOR GIVE ME MY PHONE!!! YOU BETTER NOT GO THROUGH MY PHONE!!!! I said…STOP BANGING MY DOOR!!!! Then she said GIVE ME MY PHONE!!!! I KNOW WHAT UR DOING!!!!! (as if im a thief/snoop/liar when in reality she is and has actually GONE THROUGH MY PHONE and harassed me for things ive written)….i throw her nasty wretched phone under the door as this demon is behaving like a child and begin screaming at her telling her she is a @@@@@@@ and whore and a bitch and to get lost….again all the windows are open so everyone can hear which was done intentionally by this demonic wench from hell…..
Then she threatens to call the police on me for calling her curse words!!! Lol!!! I said youre threatening the police on me in my OWN HOUSE FOR CURSE WORDS???? (she has done it before abused harassed terrorized me and threatened the cops on me like crazy for any little thing just to scare me)…I said…GET THE HELL OUT OF MY PLACE YOU STUPID BITCH!!! YOU EVIL WHORE!!! YOU @@@@@@@ WENCH…YOU ARE GOING TO HELL FOR RUINING M LIFE YOU PATHEITC EVIL BITCH!!!! Being a mentally ill sociopath….this was her CANDY!!!! She WANTED ME TO SCREAM YELL AT HER SHE LOVED IT OF COURSE!!! SHE WAS THRILLED TO PROJECT HER EVIL AND HATE ONTO ME SO I CAN PROJECT IT BACK TO HER….AND I SAW A MENTALLY ILL POSSESSED SOCIOPATH STARING AT ME HAPPY….THAT SHE HAS CAUSED ME TO BACKLASH ON HER AND GO CRAZY….THIS IS WHAT SHE WANTS ALWAYS….AND IT IS THE MOST INSANE THING IN THE WORLD…..i said…you’ve DESTROYTED MY LIFE YOU EVIL BITCH AND ONE DAY I WILL TAKE OYU TO ######6 COURT!!!! I began harassing screaming at her cursing her out every word I can think of…..i said GET OUT OF MY PLACE!!!! CALL THE COPS ON ME BITCH???? FOR CUSSING???? ILL CALL THE COPS AND TELL THEM YOU HIT ME YOU STUPID BITCH!!! Then shes looking at me as if im crazy o rbad…as if osmethings wrong with ME for cursing her out….can you imagine??? How evil someone can be….my poor cats…just suffering now…all they want is someone to come over, hang out…have fun…and ANYONE that comes over no joke is an abusive monster looking to use or abuse me terribly….its like im living in some weird hell and its crazy….what my cats get are demonic satantic sadistic people who come over to horridly terrorize me like this pathetic devil bitch…..i told her to get out….and that’s what she wanted!! Yup!! She wanted me to yell at her and kick her out….she ENJOYS driving here two hours then driving back NOT helping me and just coming to make me suffer….of course the WHOLE time I was screaming all the windows were open so now I seem psychotic and crazy to anyone listening…and that was her goal all along….she said “LET ME CLOES THE WINDOWS BECAUSE THE NEIGHBORS ARE LISTENING”!!! but she was smirking saying that….its what she had planned….i don’t know what to do about evil like her… NO ONE HAS HELPED ME OUT…my sister just ignores me…and helps her out and others don’t care….i have to suffer at the hands of this mentally ill sadist from hell and I don’t know what to do….. her goal was to cause chaos, get me angry make me suffer scream cause hell for my poor animals..make them suffer….leave without helping me AT ALL just coming over to make me suffer and worse now having all the neighbors hear this…God help me I have suffered at the hands of this sadistic sociopath for 15 years now and cant seem to get this demonic bitch out of my life and because I have been traumatized brainwashed victimized….and also becaue its too much abuse and I just forgive or forget and am nice to people even if they have abused me…