I'm just so sick of it all...

[LoneSword7878]

To whom it may concern,

Contrary to popular belief, you are not entitled to your so-called opinion on how I manage my lifestyle as you insist on calling it because it’s entirely none of your business. You don’t get to have an opinion on how I define myself because you don’t know me, what I do, and what I have been through. I don’t care if you are a blind church pastor leading the blind, a fake news reporter, some bigwig CEO, a poorly assigned school teacher, senator, or even governor or some other paranoid official, another misguided student, or a washed up entertainer. You have your lives and I have mine, and as long as it is not with any of you it doesn’t affect you one single bit. The cold hard truth is that it doesn’t matter if your “opinion” is your own and different from mine but how well it stacks up in the present, and once the scales have been weighed against you, it’s time for you to shut up and sit back down.

You have no right to tell me that I am going to hell or deny my ability to marry or adopt because I don’t follow the religion or traditions that you chose for yourself and yourself alone. I’m not obligated to respect your cruddy religious beliefs just because I refuse to conform to them and it is not bigoted for me to harshly criticize you for allowing yourself to be collected into your selectively unmitigated ‘truths’ and to become just another cultural stereotype. Believe it or not, it is entirely possible to find God without being absorbed into your organizations and you should try it sometime. Personally, I don’t care if God exists or not because I won’t be a hundred percent sure until I die; nobody will.

Let me ask you something; how do you know that every single LGBT matches with their stereotypes and that every single child actually wants a mother and father? How can you be so sure that being in a “traditional” marriage has the best results and you do know that not everyone conforms to gender roles? I’ll say this as many times as it takes, not everyone follows the same idea of tradition that you do! Some kids are raised by people who are not married or seeing anyone, people of two completely different races, people of the same sex, and people who are of the opposite or neutral gender. This ultimately means that not just yours, but everyone’s definition of marriage is pointless because no one owns it and there are families who ignore that and get along just fine without your approval or “support,” and the sooner we all realize that the better.

Who are you to tell me what I can and cannot do with my body and who I share it with just because you find it unnatural, self-destructive, icky, or whatever? If you are that adamant into believing that I am going to make the sky fall one day, you do that on the privacy of your own property and away from the people who are making better progress into what makes humans and their bodies and interactions really tick. You can practice your religion, just don’t get your tights in a wad and cry “intolerance,” “bully,” or “political correctness” because not everyone follows them. You can raise your perfect family and have nothing to do with us as long as you back off and leave others to raise theirs.

That’s right, over my preference for people of my same sex is a human being who is just as capable of the same things you can, sometimes even better and that’s what has you so afraid, isn’t it? You’re afraid of someone finally proving you’re supposed undisputed facts wrong and being able to raise children who live almost twice as fulfilling lives as yours, thus causing your whole world to come crashing down around you. Well, I am here to tell you that it’s alright because this was never a competition over who was better at raising families and I’m no boogeyman. I have no interest whatsoever in climbing in your window and snatching your people up trying to rape them. You don’t have to hide your kids and hide your wife and hide your husband because I won’t be raping anybody out here or anywhere else.

If you think I am forcing some political agenda, here is a newsflash: Some people have no political affiliation! I don’t care about the left or the right or their dirty schemes for this country and its economy, market, healthcare, education, media, military, or guns you own or whatever. Heck, I don’t even care about the country itself; it’s just a piece of land to me! I just want to write comics while being able to freely explore what makes me me on the side without your propaganda and I have no interest in raising a kid. I admit that I am a hedonist as I live for material pleasures and aesthetics for I believe that life is all about finding pleasure.

I could probably say the same for you as I am kind of ashamed that you would let yourself become so paranoid that you would politicize yourself and actively force everyone to comply with it. I am not asking to be friends because you’re already way out of style for my tastes. I just want you to leave me and everyone else who doesn’t want to be a part of your congregation alone. You’ve found your spot in life, now let us find ours. I am not an idea, I am a human being with desires, feelings, and abilities, and if you decide to act against us when by no means have ever wanted to act against you, then I will fight you until I get what I want.

You can reject me, but you will not oppose me.

…And don’t think that this marginalized social group that once filled me inspiration until it suddenly copped out and dashed them into bits is off the hook, either. Something has been telling me that you people have never really put all of your heart into your struggles even after all of the suffering done to you and your youths and all of the strides you made into finding your place in life, and it has left a majorly desensitizing effect to say the least. Has it all been a sham, do you not want to be free from social discrimination so you can express yourself in your own unique way or do you want to outright assimilate your very being into the exact political collective that is oppressing you so you can do the same? Some of you have actually allowed yourselves to be bought out by these groundless assumptions that what you do is merely a choice and that you are twice as bigoted for refuting them all so everyone can keep hugging the giant double-edged, blood-soaked, , and forbiddingly unchallenged teddy bear of “free speech” that they so adore. Are some of you even satisfied with being kicked around like dirt simply because you are different from the norm?

Feel free to call this radically anti-American if you want, but patriotism and nationalism are all overrated for me because I don’t need to worship some piece of land to make my own destiny.

Do you pay no mind to letting corrupt corporate honchos donate to horrible and unscrupulous groups that expressly want you put in chains and shipped out of the country like your wild animals? Do you think nothing of the people who would dare call themselves teachers to kick your confused children to curb and tell them that they will never have a purpose in life unless they turn to religion? Are you that lenient to allow important school events that are held to spread awareness of bullying to be disrespectfully interrupted by the same hatred that puts dozens more of them under and to be wildly misconstrued as a celebration of your “unnatural lifestyle?” Are you happy to compromise what has naturally made you and you alone up for the sake of finding some mythical “middle ground?” Please tell me that deep down that this was never how you wanted your life to go, to throw it all away or to have it politicized it for our parties’ materialistic desires to obliterate each other for their own selfish designs for domination?

If that is true, that you have no qualms with exchanging your own personal life goals that you probably had for your selfish political beliefs, then you go right ahead. Go ahead and let yourself and everyone else to let their very bodies to be contested over and be sucked into our political gladiator games that deep down never mattered to you… because you don’t deserve it.

You don’t deserve to define yourself!
You don’t deserve to be unique!
You don’t deserve to be an individual!
You don’t deserve to be free!

And you don’t deserve my empathy…

It makes me wonder now if this is the kind of world that Dr. Martin Luther King envisioned when he fought for the freedom of black people. I am now starting to believe that everything MLK fought and died for was all for naught, as we see blacks and all kinds of other races who are more than happy to compromise what makes them individuals and be assimilated into political blood sport instead of just living their lives without being seen as a lesser simply for who they are. There is something heartbreaking about seeing black people become right-wing conservatives who a large number of are quite open about their racial bias. I know that a group should not define themselves by their oppression they got from another group and that is something that I will admit my guilt in. I’m not bothered at all when a black person calls a white person whatever words that they use, I’m just not.

When I got embroiled in the murder of Trayvon Martin, I learned that racism is alive and well for more varied reasons than I thought. There are still a large number of marginalized blacks who have sadly long grown up with a culture centering on all kinds of violence and other activities of the sort. I would stand by as commentators would blame racial bias reminding everyone of their oppressed history. I even felt that it was somewhat deserved for us to be blamed for it all because our systems are very disproportionate. I agree that if we keep letting these certain people take out their pent up aggression on us, the cultural stereotypes will persist and the vicious cycle of hurt will start anew and we will never achieve our perfect peaceful society; I am not that naive.

However, to see these same people who share the same skin color with these scattered groups say things like that it’s better to see a punk dead without understanding why he became a punk, it gives off a hint racial bias towards themselves. I sense an indication that there are black people who are happy to rat out the less fortunate of their own race in this mixing bowl that we all live in to further their own political agenda instead of actually understanding why this happens and how we can stop it. Unfortunately, I suppose that our media intends to spur resentment amongst ourselves for ratings in lieu of reporting it as it is like it always has.

I know full well that our modus has always been to protect and not to destroy, but do you not owe it to yourself and those like you who have so far as to be left on the streets for who you are to erase these venomous falsities? And do not tell me that we should give our opponents some semblance of a chance to justify their irrational fears that are grounded in stereotypical superstition for that is the ultimate form of dishonesty and half-heartedness. They have had all the time in the world to reflect and study upon their actions and I have tried to see things from their point of view, but they bungled it and it is impossible. Why should anyone concede to someone else’s prosaic life choice just to sacrifice the individuality that we were born with, that all of humanity was born with?! There is nothing “free” about submitting to someone else’s intrusion in the name of a double-ended idea.

When someone is attacking you for who you are for either not coinciding with their traditions and religions or being just plain nuts and or trying to prevent you from living your life the way you want to, YOU DO NOT ROOT FOR THEM!! Like I said before, if you are actually willing to surrender what that is totally subjective to your person and let it be placed on center stage instead of your capabilities as a caretaker for someone else’s absolutism or superstition because “everyone’s entitled to their opinion”, then you deserve to feel like a burden and you’ve earned your place as a robot.

I don’t know if you have noticed, but there will always be those who do not have the same thick skin that you do! There will always be someone who will be hurt whenever someone tells them that they will burn in hell for following their natural instincts until they take their own life as millions have before us, so you shouldn’t be so arrogant and tell them to get over it. Wasn’t that why we were all in this together in the first place, to address the suicide epidemic because our kids were dropping like flies because they had nowhere to turn in their time of need? I guess it doesn’t matter after all that words have killed millions of confused youths in the name of religion. I suppose it wasn’t the war that certain peoples have waged on our curious children that united us, or have they already been indoctrinated, too?

Well, I don’t know what to do now that you people have now decided to be assimilated into our politics. I stood by you because I thought that your interests in self-discovery were incredibly unique even though I understood that some of you were not. I was planning on something special as a tribute to you and your plight but I suppose that won’t be necessary anymore. I guess it wouldn’t be worth it anyway since I was already beaten to the punch by “Northstar” and other comic book characters like him. It was going to be heartwarming, funny, and slightly adrenal, but if you are now satisfied with people “disagreeing with your unnatural lifestyle” for everyone’s stupid “free speech” then all I can say is adios.

I have been by your side so long that I can hardly even remember, but after sitting back for awhile and looking back on everything that has happened and reflecting on what we were fighting for in the first place, I have begun to think that everything has been a lie. I think that I have come realize a number of things about are supposed struggles. I think I have finally figured how totally pointless all of this fighting is!

All of our debates have been completely pointless!
It was never about opinions or beliefs!
It was never about free speech!
And it was never about tolerance!

Everything that has been said about marriage and parenting is totally irrelevant because it is an entirely private matter that does not affect anyone except those who take part in it! Yet, for some reason you still coddle those who you do not relate to and want to condemn and prevent you from obtaining happiness because you don’t fit into the traditions that they chose for themselves and themselves alone! It was never about supporting one lifestyle or the other because everyone chooses their own path in life, but here we are and look at the “culture war” that has resulted! You were never obligated to bend over for someone else because you don’t follow their traditions and beliefs and yet you do it anyway because “Hey, everyone’s entitled to their opinion.”

You have your family and I have mine so ultimately you can take your “opinion” and “beliefs” and shove them because I have nothing to do with you! Your beliefs do not dictate me, you have no right to have a say in what I do, and if you do then there is going to be big trouble! This is my life, this is who I am, and you don’t get to have an opinion for it!

BACK OFF AND GET YOUR OWN LIFE!

…Man, I wonder if the Neanderthals had it easier compared to the humans of today. Yeah, they were dumb, but they only had to worry about their instincts and not any morals or social structures. If people are going to do whatever they want without taking the consequences into account, then what is the point of anything? Well, they’re gone now, and I guess there is no point in worrying about anything.