eh

[mbw]

Well here it goes again. I deactivated my facebook. Looking at people's pictures and trying to talk back to people who talk to me is so draining and depressing to me. I think I'm just not properly equipped to handle social interaction and being inside a world where such emphasis is on looks.

I might actually enjoy facebook if there were no "faces" (photos) on the site. It's beyond depressing to see society's standards of beauty being reflected in the amount of likes or lack of dislikes on a photo. Rarely do I see people being appreciated for their personality; I instead see people ogling beauty, and casting their eyes away from anything that doesn't make the grade. We see each other the way supermarkets see their fruits.

I just can't seem to maintain relationships with people. I want to say sorry to everyone who's come across me and cared or paid attention to me. I'm weak. But weakness is not something to be looked down upon. The kind of weakness, however, where the weaker person leeches off stronger people is to be looked down upon (at least it is when that weak person is me). I just drain people and I don't even mean to.

i wonder why i live at times like this