Why Do I Hate Myself?

I hate everything about myself. The way I look... I can't even look in a mirror without feeling so gross and just like I want to throw up. I literally get disgusted. My school, the kids at my school are such ignorant little jerks. For example, on the bus ride home the other day, some of the 10th graders yelled, "hey fattie, you're so nasty, go loose 100 pounds then maybe you'll get a date" to this poor overweight women on the street. I wanted to slap them. I am overweight too so I understand what she must have felt. The worse thing was, she had her kids with her. I may only be 16 but I've gone through more stuff than you may think, I was robbed of my childhood which I think created big problems for me now, I just don't know what to do, or who to talk to.
I just want to feel good about myself again...

We all deal with these insecurities everyday and the jerks in this world dont make it any better. Just remember that there are good people who dont judge people the way those kids do. Also remember that everybody is beautiful in there own way. You say your over weight but although that may or may not be true, i wouldnt really know, you seem to have a very big heart wich is really what counts because in the end nobody really wants to be around a jerk all the time. If you need anybody to talk to you can pm me if you want. I hope things get better for you.

Thanks so much for the kind words. That made me happy to read that, I actually started to cry...tears of joy, of course.

awww..your very welcome, you deserve to be happy

Applesarefun, I know exactly how you feel. I feel the same way when I look at myself in the mirror. I know how we feel about ourselves has to come from within. We can't let other people's opinion about how we should look dictate how we feel about ourselves. It really does matter what's on the inside. I know, easier said than done. We just have to look in the mirror and find something we like about ourselves. Find something new everyday. People are cruel. They like to make others feel bad about themselves so they can feel better about themselves. I've seen people scream things at people passing by too. At times I was the one being screamed at. It makes me angry but at least I know I'm better than them in the sense that I know better than to ever do that to someone.
Although you say you've been robbed of your childhood, you are still young and therefore have many opportunities ahead to enjoy your youth. I hope you do so.

apples I also know exactly where you are coming from. I'm 16 and hear and see the same ignorant things like kids harrasing people and hurting people. I hate the way I look and the way my mind works. I know with time I can overcome it and you can too. We are still young like the guy before me said and we have the rest of our lives in front of us. If you ever feel like you need to talk im always here for you, I hope everything works out.

Awkward fazes suck. I understand,I use to be overweight too. I think that optimism, as hard as it may be to have sometimes, really really helps. See the good in people. For example, I was in a bagle shop and the mother behind me with her daughter who was being very irritable and sarcastic. I thought she was being a real jerk, but I found out later that just that morning her mother had divorced her father. You never know why some people are acting like jerks, but usually there's a reason.
When you get through this you'll realize that you're gorgeous, and you won't need a mirror to prove it. Just consentrate on self improvement and find out what makes you happy. If skinny=happy, then go for it. If not, then that's good too. Being upset all the time isn't worth it, you sound like an awesome person, and you don't have to listen to anyone tell you otherwise. Usually the meanest people are the most insecure.