Im in love

schizophrenic moments of rapturous glee , brighten the darkness that surrounds me. She is beautiful and sweet, fierce and unique. She tells me things....iv heard before long long ago...how great I am , how wonderful i make her feel. How is it I missed this? in my head, there was no connection , nothing. But she loves me. And I , in my despairing fate, must blindly chase after her. For there are no other prospects, and as empty as I feel, there somewhat of a glimmer when she is near. Madness steel my heart , darkness guide my hand. Can't wait...to feel alive. Having someone care. iv dreamed about it. I must do away with my insanity, should I get back on lithium or what? usually it makes me not work in bed. but i dont want to lose anything else because of mental illness....i rly dont have much.