I think I may be schizophrenic

Hello over the past two years I have been having my strange symptoms increase.
---Since I have been little I have always talked to myself. Over the past few years it has gotten worse I find myself looking around to see if people see me talking to myself. I can remember being in high school and people saying don't talk to her she is the girl who talks to herself. I find myself reenacting scenarios in my head and cant help but to verbally reenact them . It has gotten to the point where I am with a group of friends and I have to attach myself back into the reality of what is going on around me.
---I also will randomly be sitting down get a thought in my head stand up walk around and enact it for a quick second then sit back down like nothing happened. I pace all day and when I am alone I walk back and forth and talk to myself.
---when I am out in public I always think people are looking at me or talking about me. I cant even really eat in public because I think people are watching me. I always think I'm being watched (paranoia?)
---I wish I could go somewhere and think people are not talking about me. everything also always makes me cry or get overly emotional. I can not handle something not going my way.

Hello and welcome to the forum. I'm sorry to hear about what you are going through. Have you considered seeing a therapist to help you work out what is going on for you? I think it could maybe help.

You mention you are talking to yourself. Do you talk out loud in response to things you hear yourself say inside your head? Or have a conversation with yourself out loud? Or are you responding to things you hear outside of your head?

the voices I hear are scenarios with me and other people. when i talk outloud it is a full blown situation regarding what im thinking about in my head.

I don't necessarily think what you've said so far sounds like schizophrenia. It sounds like you are aware that you are carrying on a conversation that you are aware you have come up with in your head.

Do you ever find yourself vaguing out in the middle of a conversation and not being able to remember what someone else was saying. Or do you find you forget things sometimes, like going to do something like post a letter and realize that you've already done it?

have external voices
but i do this quite a bit. the full blown conversing out loud. pacing. and before i know it its been an hour and i dont remember what i doing before. though im not reenacting anything thats already happened. its people i know but they are saying new things ive never heard them say before and never would say ever.
still trying to figure out if it pertains to this Dx

thats me. but i cant tell you if you have this Dx because i do not know. im not trained in Dx'ing people. wish i was. but then youd have to pay me.

I have done that yes and alot of times ill forget to do something or forget that I already did it or i will go to do something i just thought of and completely forget it

Well obviously we can't diagnose you here, you'd need to go to a therapist for that.

But if you are having those memory issues too, it could have something to do with dissociation perhaps. This is a good survey to help you work out if you have some of the other symptoms of dissociation: http://counsellingresource.com/lib/quiz ... tests/des/ and if you relate to some of those questions you might want to check out dissociative disorders part of the forum and ask some questions there also: dissociative-disorders/

I will say that I am biased in that everything you've described sounds a lot like what I experience and I have a dissociative disorder, so that is partly what makes me wonder if it is that. Also people with DID tend to test positive for a lot of the symptoms of schizophrenia too so it is probably worth looking into both things.

A therapist would know best but I don't think there is any harm in doing a bit of preliminary research about stuff, doing research also gives you a better awareness of how to describe the symptoms you are experiencing as you gradually start to read some descriptions that you feel encapsulates what you go through well. That makes it easier to have the language to tell a therapist what you are going through so that they will be able to help you.