My views

I couldn't sleep last night as I was having some delusions and weird feelings. I can stare at myself in the mirror and hallucinate sometimes when I feel this way. I can just imagine how much I would be hallucinating if I was off my pills. Sometimes I think it would be better off my pills with no pills at all, and I could go about my life in a dreamworld, where aliens and trolls and other creatures of fantasy were normal occupants of this strange world. I believe that what you see when you are hallucinating is a real thing, and that somehow you are able to breach the barrier between a different dimension or universe and visualize what lies beyond. I could visualize a troll, and see him right there, in the flesh in front of me, maybe 6 feet away at most. Sitting there reading a magazine. He looked so real it's almost impossible, but I don't know if it's the brain making this creature up, or it's me looking into a different dimension or universe to see something that's not here on earth. Or maybe it's me being able to see what's really here on earth in it's real form. Our fears, our curiosities, in real flesh. I just know that the last time I hallucinated I wasn't under psychosis, I was perfectly normal, and that's how I want it to be, I want to be able to observe and document these hallucinations without flying off the handle. I know I have severe schizophrenia and It's a wonder that the pills even help as much as they do. In a way, I think it's more natural to live your life without taking these brain medication that eventually mess up your brain even more. To live your life in the world you were meant to see. I was meant to see those things, and I don't think I should hide from them. I'm not going off my medication, but that Is how I feel about the issue.

xad wrote:I couldn't sleep last night as I was having some delusions and weird feelings. I can stare at myself in the mirror and hallucinate sometimes when I feel this way. I can just imagine how much I would be hallucinating if I was off my pills. Sometimes I think it would be better off my pills with no pills at all, and I could go about my life in a dreamworld, where aliens and trolls and other creatures of fantasy were normal occupants of this strange world. I believe that what you see when you are hallucinating is a real thing, and that somehow you are able to breach the barrier between a different dimension or universe and visualize what lies beyond. I could visualize a troll, and see him right there, in the flesh in front of me, maybe 6 feet away at most. Sitting there reading a magazine. He looked so real it's almost impossible, but I don't know if it's the brain making this creature up, or it's me looking into a different dimension or universe to see something that's not here on earth. Or maybe it's me being able to see what's really here on earth in it's real form. Our fears, our curiosities, in real flesh. I just know that the last time I hallucinated I wasn't under psychosis, I was perfectly normal, and that's how I want it to be, I want to be able to observe and document these hallucinations without flying off the handle. I know I have severe schizophrenia and It's a wonder that the pills even help as much as they do. In a way, I think it's more natural to live your life without taking these brain medication that eventually mess up your brain even more. To live your life in the world you were meant to see. I was meant to see those things, and I don't think I should hide from them. I'm not going off my medication, but that Is how I feel about the issue.

Do you have faith in God or something ?

xad,

it's almost as if thatt were me who wrote that post. I don't really see schizophrenia as a mental illness, more of a mental difference. I have believed for years that the voices and visions and beleifs i have are real and i am seeing into another demension. I have chosen not to take any antipsychotics for now, because it makes me unnatural. I don't feel like myself when i am without my 'symptoms'. I've had them all my life. I also had a strong belief at one point, that i came from another demension and i am not human. I still believe this, but the feeling isn't as strong these days. There are openings into these other demensions that people cannot see. Cracks in glass, the corners of the walls, are examples of openings, but i have no idea how to get through.
I think that "schizophrenia" is really a special power that not many people have. Schizophrenics see, hear, feel, and know what the truth is that no one else can see.

-Becka

I also have a firm belief that I do not have an "Illness".. I believe it is a gift. I agree with you about those "cracks" in the wall or in glass, yeah they are definitely there. I think you can open one of those cracks open wider... Oh my god, i just thought of something.
When I saw the alien, he was reaching out towards me, maybe waiting for me to take his hand, and be pulled into the other dimension.. because it was as if one of those cracks opened so wide that it allowed an alien to walk through, and behind him was the crack, it was all black. I didnt have the strength to go with him. I couldnt move. So my chance ended, and I went back to sleep.
Next time will be different, if I see the alien again I will go with him.. I will travel to the other "dimension"... and go with him.. They say that the Mayans had contact with aliens, and that even today some of the beings piloting UFO's are mayan wise men who traveled to the other dimension through shamanic voyaging. That's what I believe I need to go on , is a shamanic voyage to the other dimension.

Hello friends,

In the Hindu belief system, which is the oldest system in the world, existence of parallel universes is well accepted. Many wise people called, Rishis and Yogis can travel back and forth between these dimensions while having control of their soul. Please watch this video, where the latter half of the video is more pertinent to your discussion.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zfgGoknM ... re=related

I believe you all have a gift, and it is important for you to join one of these spiritual awareness programs in order to fully understand what you see.
good luck to all of you and please consider spiritual upliftment as the real journey.