Finallllllly cracked the code... im a skitzophrenic

this is gonna sound crazy as ###$ but i dont reallly care anymore

it all started 5 & a half months ago ... i was trying to get some sleeep so i could go to my first day of work

i started hearing "ghosts" that knew things about me... i looked at where the voice was coming from, and it told me it knew i looked .... it also knew things i done in the past. then the table in the kitchen started shaking, cupboard & fridge doors were opening n shutting rapidly and other things i cant remember were making noises... weird eh

anyways ... the next few days were fine but obviously i thought about what went down that night

within the week i started hearing a voice in my head... i was convinced i could read minds for awhile . it also helped that i thought things before people said them

lately i been reading personality disorders, trying to figure out what it was .... turns out i have all tha symptoms of paranoid skitzophenia

i heard it isn't curable and its gonna be with me until i die .... lol and i just noticed the voice hasn't said anything since i started writing this message thats pretty cool , they judge me on everything i do.. i stoppped caring completely about what people think of me i think thats a good thing tho

there isn;t really a point to this i just thought u guys should be the first to know


i do have some questions though

is it common?

can i continue to smoke weed or will things only get worse? (if talking about pot breaks any rules on here i can edit it out)

Is there any way to mute the voice?

i'll probably have some more later if you guys dont mind answering them

shoutout to everybody else who has it ... i know what your going through its no walk in the park

Well you can try out medication, then you have to finesse yourself into lowering your symptoms. But usually its still too intense to quit medication once you're on it especially cause of the rebound effects. Its like your brain goes into manic mode from all the dopamine release. Another route would be to just take the medication when you're hospitalized, as long as you can keep your rationality. But yeah you're a chronic schizophrenic. Read this study.

http://www.schizophrenia.com/sznews/arc ... 01994.html

I just took a bunch of supplements, and now im off the medication but still rocky at times mostly normal though.

Welcome to the club, I guess.

With the right meds you can get some control of the voices. They are never totally gone for me though... which is a shame. It's my biggest dream to get rid of the voices. I know how impossible they can be sometimes... judging you, picking on everything you do or think, I really hate them.

Yes, you sound like you have the typical signs of the illness. I used to think I could read people's minds too. It's more of a delusion than anything else, although I do think it's possible.

Yes, you should try to quit smoking pot. That's what caused my schizophrenia in the first place. I was smoking everyday. After a few years I developed a really nasty schizophrenia and it hasn't left since. At least try to cut down. Some studies show that cannabis for schizophrenia works in low doses. But definitely not everyday and not heavily. It's supposed to be for relieving the symptoms not for making them worse.

Well... good luck! Try not to be fearful. Fear just makes it worse. Take care man.

thanks for your swift responses guys atleast we can be happy theres other people out there knowing what we go through

sorrry to hear that crazymoth , its hard not to believe all the things they tell you ... i believed my friends and family were plotting against me for a couple months. i kept hearing grand theft auto 4 music (on the pause menu) and the game wasn't even on... i thought i was being recorded. and i thought my friends bugged my room... both of those theories were dissmissed and forgotten after a while and new ones sprouted

its also hard not to listen to them when they judge your every movement, even when you know your a skitzo it still has an impact on what you do ... u think something, they'll assume something else until your like "###$ it" ... then they'll find something else to say shortly after

maybe thats just me atleast i hope it is

there has to be a way of fighting this though .... i know my paranoia left for a while when i stopped smoking up, went outside alot and did random things (example: turned the town into my personal golf course) .. i can't remember if the voices were still present or not at that time

but im gonna get past this . when i do i'll make sure you guys know how ... everything's possible, right?

im not sure i want that medication if it'll make me a manic, i might try the supplements or recreationally smoking a joint if you guys say they'll help

there has to be a way to rid yourself of the voice ... whether its a way of thinking, puttting music on blast wherever i go, not thinking AT ALL , or some other alternative method i'll find it

you guys wanna hear something weird?

on facebook i changed my name to "Johnny WeedSeed" earlier today ... and on the radio they just said it was Johnny Appleseed's birthday ..... i know thats just a coincedence but it sounds like a "Delusion of grandeur" i think thats the right phrase

Internet diagnosis is very common nowadays, and some people like to label themselves with all sorts of mental ailments for some reason, but it's a doctor that makes that diagnosis. You might want to cut out the weed, too.

billionaireceo wrote:Internet diagnosis is very common nowadays, and some people like to label themselves with all sorts of mental ailments for some reason, but it's a doctor that makes that diagnosis. You might want to cut out the weed, too.

i had every symptom of a skitzo except visual hallucinations.. i might even have that, i wouldnt know haha

Rainy wrote:

billionaireceo wrote:Internet diagnosis is very common nowadays, and some people like to label themselves with all sorts of mental ailments for some reason, but it's a doctor that makes that diagnosis. You might want to cut out the weed, too.

i had every symptom of a skitzo except visual hallucinations.. i might even have that, i wouldnt know haha

tell it to a doctor to get a reality check.

Well yes, a doctor should be consulted. I really urge you to go. And yeah, I'd just cut the weed out at your stage if I was you. I personally only use cannabis once every 2 weeks or so to do a 'deep healing' on myself. But that is my personal choice and I know if you do it everyday and often it will mess you up.

What is really working for me... takes the voices away... is a drug known as Sulpiride. I friend on here, Mirage, turned me on to it. You can't get it in the USA for some reason - probably because it works. D'oh! Anyway, I just order it online. I'm only a week into my treatment but I can hear silence again. Ahhhhh. Silence!

I can still engage the voices if I want to... but they are hardly there and it's just a habit of being with them so long. This is slowly going away too. My whole life is changing. Usually takes 2 weeks for the new drugs to take effect I am told... but I am very hopeful.

Good luck! I'm glad you have your head on straight even tho you have this illness. There's a lot of folks that can't handle it and are prone to all kind of conspiracy theories. So, way to go!

Cya.