Scariest Delusions ive encountered.

Within the past couple weeks, ive been having severely profound delusions. Ive convinced myself that i dont exist, that im just words, that were just the thoughts of innanimate objects. A lot of times im scared that if i think too hard about it, ill think myself out of existance. My voices encourage these thoughts, making me dive into these delusions even further. Im so scared and my medicine doesnt seem to help with these thoughts at all.
Can anyone relate to this?

Oh yes... I've been exactly where you are. It still happens to me sometimes.

For example... I've been working a lot. I'm a programmer. I would go to sleep some nights and I would BE a computer. I would be CODE that was just flying around. Yuk!

It was very awkward. It comes down to stress level. You need to do something you enjoy and that your human body enjoys too. That's my cure.

I'll go for a walk on the beach or the forest. I will go somewhere natural, sit under a tree, meditate and feel good... exploring all my pretty energies.

And when I can I will connect directly to my soul. I will sit somewhere comfortable and pretty and just connect with myself at the deepest level. Anyone of us can do this.

There is a You that is inherently you. Almost like your own song. Your own hymn. That is nobody else's. It's something like that. Some people call it a soul. Maybe... I connect with mine as much as I can.

So just try to connect with yourself again when the stupid delusions start. It happens to me too. It can be awful, can't it? That's why I learned to meditate... keeps the crazy away.

it's true, no walk through the city can top somewhere away from the beaten path. i'm a fan of railroad tracks. no one bugs ya if ya start a fire like they would in the city if you lit a garbage can up. my walkin energy's dissipatin though, used to walk sundown to sunup sometimes.

another reason i opt for the tracks is in case if i was walkin on the side of the road i might decide to hop out in front of a truck.

i've never walked for fun. always to try and clear the head. compartmentalization. close a hatch to keep the ship buoyant. city walkin's no good.

Railroad walking is fun... Especially when you get out to the wooded parts.

Something about two rails, a left one and right one, are almost cosmic.

Trees man... Sometimes it's just a tree you need. some shaman book I read said that trees and men have familiar energies. A tree can be your best friend. Talk to them and listen to them on the wind as their leaves rustle and whisper sweet secrets.

I like taking a walk in the snow too... That quiet of winter out there where nobody goes. Your footsteps the only marks on undefiled field of snow. Thoughts are a lot more beautiful in the winter. Nothing competes with them.

Yea, get outside.. It's crucial. Even when u don't want to... Get outside.

Wow you people are so lonely and bored. Buy a cat. I spent the first part fo my illness with basically just a cat and it was the best friend I ever had till some idiot beat it up.

I'm going for a walk tomorrow but I ain't looking forward to it much as it's work walking the track after the horse races today fixing up the divots. Sigh.... I would much rather play a video game or something then find my inner self all the time. I'm not that exciting.

If your medication isn't working then maybe you need to do something like change it or up your dosage. Have you talked to your psych about it?

I want my thoughts to turn me into something good. it always has to be bad though. i wish i could turn into a spirit or something, but its always bad things.
and i have a dog. but she doesnt like me because sometimes she can read my thoughts. i know it. She wont stay near me and play or snuggle unless i have treats.

I don't think you've been to this place we talking about here Ratattat... believe you me.

A videogame? Ya... you must still be in happy place. Plus you don't hear voices. That big part of what leads to this stage. You really need to connect back to yourself when you're this %$*#&$ up.

cats are cool. i don't like their pompous attitude but that's about it. dogs are ok but their energy is too high. yippers are out of the question.

i think there's two factors when it comes to winter. there's naturally less people hangin around outside, nearly zero highway noise. and the other is just the air density. you can hear things happening miles away. any weather you can kinda find connections in the woods. but high heat seems different than no heat, what the connection is. i don't think i explained that correctly but i did my best.