Schizophrenia And Head Trauma

Rattatat wrote:

rog wrote:I’ve read about some of your history, it’s a street life not one wrapped in cotton wool. I’m similar in that i’m also from a street background and have a strong belief that the media communicates directly to us without admitting it. i believe realising this alone is a schz symptom, then when we try to police it or get acknowledgement of it it creates further imbalance that makes the condition worse.
I’m slowly learning schz is an ineveitable progression and a humbling condition. There is only so much we can directly do before we reach a point of letting the ripples of nature take their course. We have to keep our beliefs that things are not what they seem but accept that they are not going to be directly acknowledged as no one actually knows exactly what is happening. It should get easier with time as people get humbler and less demanding of impractical systems. Existence smoothes out it’s imbalances with ripples not rippling muscles. Accountability is unavoidable, apart from for the untouchable enigma that is potential infinity and it’s constant one step ahead advantage. Better to be patient than a hospital patient. Nature punishes any aggressive or dominant behaviour regardless of how justified it may or may not be. Dark spirituality is hard to achieve but brings with it a sense of knowing without needing to know the details. I’m still learning and struggling with a lot of imbalance myself. It needs a parasite shift not a paradigm shift. We need to be helpful parasites not destructive parasites.

Well I actually had a pretty normal life. It is only in my recent past that things have got the way they have. I am lucky got a decent education(though never went to university) and worked in heaps of jobs(always a hard worker), been in relationships, owned my own home and all while free of medication, judgments or tied to a system. I am 40 now so unlike most people who get schizophrenia early in life I have had the chance to live and experience life a lot more.

I think having schizophrenia can develop a part of your brain further then the normal human where it can become more in tune/sensitive to things like media, government etc. However distortion can often happen in not only the interpretation of these things but also when you try to explain your understandings and it's a very good way to make people angry and burn relationships which is a hard thing not to do when you feel a great need to speak out. Most people with schizophrenia would simply choose ignorance over facing these things which is probably a wise thing to do... unless you are willing to be jesus and sacrafice yourself for the greater good of mankind. Media definitly communicates with us and we stay blind to the effects of their obsessions... putting the blame on individuals in society when the actual truth of the matter it is also the shepards fault.

Good post rattatat, i often have the problem of distortion happening when communicating my interpretation of my condition, ironically more so with schz sufferers as they have fragile ego’s like hair triggers, you’d think they could relate to interpretations more but often they are reluctant to change their coping methods. Explaining to people something they don’t want to hear can be frustrating.
I’ve done the lap on reaching a saturation point of how far a perception radar can stretch. I’ve been through hell so others don’t have to. no one will go through an obstacle course like the journey i’ve had, they couldn’t as the influence has now been diluted. People’s first reactions are often that it’s not just about me and that i don’t know everything. I’ve got the the purity of originality of coming to an understanding that i still have’nt heard anywhere else. it’s hard enough getting people to understand me at all, it isn’t because they're stupid it’s because most people have an inate degree of arrogance (it’s in our organic wiring) and most people aren’t as intelligent as me. They can believe different if they like, our signals our out there for all infinity to put in perspective.
I frequently get this distortion when trying to tell people to avoid the bogof trap (buy one get one free) of getting another illness on top of their original illness if they needlessly subscribe to meds that over time become an illness in themselves. Trying to explain schz to people is becoming a write off, they just are’nt ready to understand it yet. Our senses are evolved like shared sight glasses with arm bands on, the references we use are evolved with pack mentality and use the survival by numbers consensus tactic that has evolved over time.
The trouble is there is a limit to the usefulness of the numbers we use in science to analyse brains and create meds and other medical or scientific advancements. The references all incorporate a blend of the possible and the impossible. The trouble is science developed a naive tactic of assuming values that symbolised all possibilities and also a value that symbolised impossibility. It has created a system that is built on past their usefulness references.
Potential infinity literally means what it says. Any value could happen in a sequence but just as easily could not. Science has basically cut corners and is creating agendas based on running away from the solution instead of dealing with it (e.g futile dimensional progression theories). The relevant point is any science trying to specifically cure a brain problem or any problem (e.g a car engine or a computer), will always face a saturation point of how specific it can ever be. There is always outside influence beyond anyone’s radar. People unfortunately still throw there money at science that is basically telling them the world is flat.

I have narcolepsy and psychosis issues. For the narcolepsy it's caused by low dopamine and every time I take anything as far as stimulants, that increase dopamine, I get very, very sick mentally. I can't even describe it. So I'm left with untreated narcolepsy.