Heyo anyone who reads this!

What's up?

So here is my issue:
I've done all kinds of therapy, education & research on my own time, rehab etc.

The real issue is, sure, I no longer feel too concerned about my diagnosis, isolation, or general confusion about human behaviour. Hallucinations etc? They're really just entertaining or fascinating these days for me, rather than distressing.

But I am a little concerned about this: What satisfaction can I really gain, from interacting with this social system?
It seems as though, no matter how much I attempt to condition myself, behave myself, and consider the needs of the people around me... Well, it feels kind of fake and pointless? I'm sure that sounds conceited or silly, but really.

I can 'improve' myself as much as I want, but why? Even with this current culture claiming they are so enlightened and aware of mental health issues, schizo folks are still regarded with such a stigma and lack of understanding by the masses.
It almost is like a specific sub-class of our own?

Well, really, I suppose I am hoping some old and wise schiz fellow will tell me some sage statement to give me the guts to keep working hard. Or maybe a reason to just keep being a rascal lol.

Neither schizophrenic, nor sage, here. But society is everywhere, unless a person can become a hermit and live in the middle of nothing. The more you can interact with Normies, the better it is for you, surely.

Also, I don't know how old you are, but with age, well, we change. I am not as introspective, or quiet, or non-social as I used to be. I'm not the only one who has found themselves becoming more social as time goes by. I'm far less 'quiet' than I used to be.
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I know it feels fake and pointless for you, but I don't think it is, if nothing else, it's skills to be kept from rusting, for when they're really needed.