is this possibly a form of schizophrenia

I ve always had this one daydream. it is pretty much the only thing I think about. I ve spent over half my life doing nothing but daydreaming. I catch myself talking out loud and making facial expressions and stuff when Im alone. but im still aware that my daydreams are just daydreams. I also have all the negative symptoms of schizophrenia. avolition, anhedonic, flat emotions, alogia.
it all started when I was about twelve. I lost interest in school and hangin out with friends and just about everything. I became very unmotivated and it slowly kept getting worse by the time I was 21 it became almost impossible to even move. I have litterly laid in one position and not moved for approximately 7 hours. I struggle alot to do simple things like taking a shower or even eat. I was living with my parents and my dad was always bitching at me to shower and clean the house and he gave me a month to get a job or he would kick me out. so I ended up working at cracker barrel which was absoulute hell. I always feel confused about what is going on around me and I feel confused about how to react to situations and i feel like I never know what Im supposed to do unless someone specifically tells me. so I would stand around at work all confused and get yelled at by my boss. I ended up trying to kill myself. people automatically assume Im depressed because I want to die but I actually feel like Im in a good mood as long as im left alone and not required to do anything. I litterally do nothing. I dont watch tv or anything I just lay in bed not even sleeping just laying there doing nothing but daydreaming and talking to myself.I hear voices in my head but its only when Im trying to go to sleep. i was diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder but I feel like its more than just my personality like my laziness isnt simply my personality its like an inability so I was wondering if this is a form of schizophrenia or if it is something else? Im also prescribed welbutrin and abilify and all it does is make me feel restless like instead of not moving for 7 hours ill atleast roll around and flop around in bed but i still dont really feel like doing anything.

nothingness01 wrote:I ve always had this one daydream. it is pretty much the only thing I think about. I ve spent over half my life doing nothing but daydreaming. I catch myself talking out loud and making facial expressions and stuff when Im alone. but im still aware that my daydreams are just daydreams. I also have all the negative symptoms of schizophrenia. avolition, anhedonic, flat emotions, alogia.
it all started when I was about twelve. I lost interest in school and hangin out with friends and just about everything. I became very unmotivated and it slowly kept getting worse by the time I was 21 it became almost impossible to even move. I have litterly laid in one position and not moved for approximately 7 hours. I struggle alot to do simple things like taking a shower or even eat. I was living with my parents and my dad was always bitching at me to shower and clean the house and he gave me a month to get a job or he would kick me out. so I ended up working at cracker barrel which was absoulute hell. I always feel confused about what is going on around me and I feel confused about how to react to situations and i feel like I never know what Im supposed to do unless someone specifically tells me. so I would stand around at work all confused and get yelled at by my boss. I ended up trying to kill myself. people automatically assume Im depressed because I want to die but I actually feel like Im in a good mood as long as im left alone and not required to do anything. I litterally do nothing. I dont watch tv or anything I just lay in bed not even sleeping just laying there doing nothing but daydreaming and talking to myself.I hear voices in my head but its only when Im trying to go to sleep. i was diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder but I feel like its more than just my personality like my laziness isnt simply my personality its like an inability so I was wondering if this is a form of schizophrenia or if it is something else? Im also prescribed welbutrin and abilify and all it does is make me feel restless like instead of not moving for 7 hours ill atleast roll around and flop around in bed but i still dont really feel like doing anything.

Here's a link to a subtype of schizophrenia called, "simple schizophrenia." You might ask your psychiatrist about that, though I'm not sure the treatment modality would be much different. After all, what you describe does sound like what you've been diagnosed with, schizoid personality disorder.

OK you feel better if you're not required to do anything...well those are your terms.

Most of us feel better if we get what we want. But in life, you can't always get what you want. A lot of times you have to learn to do things that you don't really want to do, and make the best of it. Ultimately, you will be a lot happier overall if you practice at doing that.

You said you didn't really know what to do at work unless someone told you specifically what to do...And I know you said you had lost interest in friends at about 12...but, How do you react in social situations when you have to be in one? Do you know what to say to your friends/family or are you just saying what you think you're supposed to say?

And When you are laying there motionless in bed talking to yourself, do you know that you're talking to yourself? Or do you think you're talking to others in the dream or others elsewhere or anything?

I remember being really depressed and not wanting to do anything at all and just laying awake in bed for long periods of time and losing interest in everything including TV. I couldn't figure out what "triggered" the depression -- there wasn't any one big event I should be sad about. But anyway, what you're describing still sounds like depression! Happy people don't want to die, and they want to be out in the world doing things and talking to other people! It sounds like perhaps you don't realize you're depressed because your brain is using a complex defense mechanism of the daydream to protect itself from the realization of that diagnosis? I don't really know, but take my advice and whatnot with a grain of salt and I really do hope things get better for you!

You might look up Maladaptive Daydreaming and see if that has any relevance for you. This doesn't help much because it's not a recognised condition. But if it does seem like a possibility, at least you have a name for the issue and can start looking at tackling it from that angle.