I've fallen for an HPD! I feel stuck, is it too late?

She is wild, adventurous, amazing in bed, loves me very deeply...yet I've had my doubts for so long, and now I've read this forum, I feel duped.

She is very flirtatious. She dresses provacativeley. Always puts other people down. She has a fan club. She lies to me, and won't ever fess up, unless I have proof in a text message or email. She has huge emotional ups and downs. she absolutely cannot handle me not emailing her every 15 minutes, every waking hour.

She's married. But so am I, god help me. The email I got from her angry husband exposed a litany of her past adventures. He's the doormat. I'm the the next.

I'm going to meet her soon, she is driving from an hour away just to see me for 15 minutes. This is intoxicating!

SD

yes, i feel sorry for the both of your spouses.

superduped they have been.

- Labor.

Sow the wind and reap the whirlwind.

SuperDupped -

My only tiny bit of advice to you is this -

If she really has a HPD personality, there is simply no way you can keep up with her. She can out hurt you, out play you, out damage you on every level and in the end your ego will be hurt. Why?

What is a game to you is her real 24/7/365 life and she'll live that life without a second thought. You will end up hurt.

She really has nothing to lose. Her ego is already shattered at a core level. You'll likely have yours shattered by her, which will leave her feeling empowered and you will be left a broken man. Run!

Xdude wrote: you will be left a broken man. Run

Hey Super,

Have to agree with Xdude....RUN

If you don't stop, it doesn't sound like much good is going to come out of this and in the end could be a disaster for you.

Maybe you should listen to her husband now that he is aware of what's going on? Sounds like he was patient with you for now, but what makes you so sure he won't tell your wife or get "really pissed" if you continue?

Do you love your wife or are you willing to lose her and your marriage? That is what is on the line.

Your choice to stop the affair or not. No one elses.

I wish you the best.

OK

She visited and we had wild sex in park. She's an exhibitionist, she doesn't care, or it excites her to be in public like that. It used to scare me.

We have being seeing each other for nearly two years. We see each other every day. Her husband knows. She says they are separated but living in the same house. We both have kids. She wont leave - I suspect she cannot bear to be alone. My wife knows too. I stay for the kids, ridiculous I know.

I have ended this destructive relationship 3 times now. The first time we got back together after a week of NC. The second, a day. The third just hours.

I can see myself marrying my HPD, yet something holds me back. She is wild and I love her. My guilt and fear hold me back from the precipice. But I'm barely hanging on.

SD

Super: My guilt and fear hold me back from the precipice. But I'm barely hanging on.

If you had some control over yourself, what would you do?

Where do you want to be 5 years from now?

OK

SDuped: I rarely write on the forum any longer, for a number of reasons. But I now saw your story, which strikingly resembles mine, and that of many others. At the end she will get bored with you and dump you, and you will be broken. You will even not know why. And don't think she is not seeing other men. We all know that it would be terribly difficult for you to act now -- you are drugged. But if you have the slightest instinct of self-preservation left, just run. RUN!

Super wrote:She is very flirtatious. She dresses provacativeley. Always puts other people down. She has a fan club. She lies to me, and won't ever fess up, unless I have proof in a text message or email. She has huge emotional ups and downs. she absolutely cannot handle me not emailing her every 15 minutes, every waking hour

Dark wrote: You will even not know why. And don't think she is not seeing other men

Well, Dark, if she is not doing other men now, she will be in the future. Sounds like she has them all lined up. If he thinks he something special to her, I have no idea why. He already knows the truth, but still goes back for more. That's his problem, not hers.

Hopefully he comes out the fog and fiqures out what's up.

OK

It seems so easy to think logically and end this. But it's not easy at all.

I remember reading her emails about what she said to someone who asked why she is splitting with her husband. "He bored me to tears" she said.

But she loves so deeply! She wears jewellery with my name on it, for all to see. She has my initials in a tattoo, clearly visible, in a provocative way.

She changed her last name in Facebook to mine. She wants the controversy. I admit it thrilled me initially too.

But I've read her emails about how she treated her doormat husband, prior to me. Emails to him, how all these men keep contacting her constantly. Not her fault, she said! And yet other emails, where she tells her friends amazing stories of her exploits with these same men.

But she loves me, and I her. I just don't trust her though, something's not right. Yet I can't stop.

SD