we are both writing this post to ensure honesty on my part lol she thinks i may have a mental illness and I'm thinking she's probably the one, or that she has an artificial one caused by drug use, ie coke
so basically, she says I'm a selfish individual incapable of true love. she has trust issues because I'm good looking and wrongly mistakes my charism for flirting. i think I'm living, although passion is gone, I'm not selfish, i work full time while she doesn't, thus i like a break after my day.
she thinks i steal money from her because i sometimes wrongly borrow her debit card without permussion, but withthe intent of giving it back. also because uI've given her a lot too!
she thinks i want to control her and i think its her. she says I'm manipulative and i will always hiurt her feelings twice as much as she will hurt mine. she says in fact she's not trying to hirt my feelings, amd its only in my head. i think she's blind
she says i can't feel, or show affection, i say maybe, but i had a manipulative mother, which i love regardless, that when i was a kid, she wywud always hold hostage the things i like to manipulate me and thus learbed quickly to hide them.
she thinks I'm a psycho cause i will kick her cat off a table. i just can't stand animals where i eat. she thinks i have to stop killing animals for fun because i enjoy hunting and wants to take away the only place i feel at peace, the woods. yes, i don't have remorse for killing coyotes, deer, rabbits, but they are animals, amd i luke rge thrill of a hunt, feeling like a predator stalking his prey and ambush them for a kill. i see romance perhaps, but it is in our genes, men have hunted for millions of years. that doesn't make us psychopaths.
she's the one seeking drugs all the time, and when i bring it up, she says its to cope with me. i will do it too sice she's buying and doing it in my face, but I'm always the one saying she shudnt buy ib the first place.
i think she's doing it, so i am tired ar work and lose ny job so she can keep me by her side like a puppy.
aside from that, i don't think we really have illness, i like myself and think of myself as highly intelligent. the only problem is probably induced ny her drug abuse.
opinions welcome.