Wishing she would take me back.

The conclusion:

After a week of silence I wrote her an email about my feelings and daily stuff. I told her how I wished we could get back together again and such. Then she finally told me that this is it. This is the end. She won't change her mind and we're not getting back together.

Somehow I feel reliefed. Even though I'm a bit sad, but now I have the chance to start living my life again. It's a shame because we would've made a perfect couple, but I hope someday I meet a woman that will make me feel the same as she did... or even better.

Hi Araafi,

Whilst it's sad that it is over, at least there is no more guessing or doubts. You are right - now you are free to start living your life again!
Soon you may find a wonderful woman who loves and wants you.

Platypus wrote:Hi Araafi,

Whilst it's sad that it is over, at least there is no more guessing or doubts. You are right - now you are free to start living your life again!
Soon you may find a wonderful woman who loves and wants you.

Thanks for the support

Now that I feel reliefed I am somehow getting more and more comfortable with the idea of me and my ex being friends. Too soon to say so I'll give it some more thought.

-- Sun Jul 17, 2011 9:43 pm --

Now I need to open out a little bit.

I was finally getting over our break-up and on my two feet. We even had coffee together on friday and it was nice to see her again after almost 3 weeks had gone by. After that I felt fine and we texted each other some usual stuff.

As I already wrote on the first post in this thread that she had to break up with me because she didn't want to be with anyone and wants to start living her own life. Today she calls and suddenly drops a bomb on me and says "I'm seriously considering getting back together with my ex"... I mean (excuse me my language) WHAT THE ###$ Could she stab me in the heart some more? I feel like I'm being betrayed and suckerpunched and whatnot. I have never been this mad before. I'm seriously considering to cut all connections with her forever. What good is this kind of person in my life who changes her mind every week? Could this really be BPD or something else? I honestly don't know what to think right now.