wondering why i stay

They are out there, dear. The common problem is that you might not notice them or be attracted to their personality. Looks aside. I am glad you came to make that hard decision, the test now is to stick to it and find what is best for you. Do not look back and make yourself happy after so long! My own advice is not to worry about a man so much as yourself. I am not saying not to date (divorce him so he cannot use it against you as cheating), just the focus should be getting your life on track, where you want it to be.
I am proud of you, bassy! You made the decision to improve your life even if that mean leaving the man you gave so much to! You deserve better, indeed! What plans do you have now? Taking things one day at a time?

-Nanashi-