Hard to trust

I have been in two abusive marriages,Then I thought my Third marriage was going to be promising,But after 9 years of marriage he tried twice to kill me before he commited suicide,I am very lucky to be alive.But even though I went thru several months of counsiling (which I cant afford anymore) I still feel as though I cant trust anyone,I thought maybe doing some posting might help me feel alittle better.

KING wrote:I have been in two abusive marriages,Then I thought my Third marriage was going to be promising,But after 9 years of marriage he tried twice to kill me before he commited suicide,I am very lucky to be alive.But even though I went thru several months of counsiling (which I cant afford anymore) I still feel as though I cant trust anyone,I thought maybe doing some posting might help me feel alittle better.

Trust is something that will come slowly... I had a hard time trusting, I dealt with domestic violence and abuse, rape, etc etc over a the span of 1996-2001... I did meet someone eventually who I trusted, and we met in 2001 and been together ever since.

So it can happen again, it took me a long time to get there with people in general , even though stuff still triggers me it is defintately easier then it was 2-3-4 + yrs ago.

In terms of counseling, you said you cannot afford it, usually you can find in your general area helplines, group therapy that sometimes offers free services to those unable to afford it etc.

Support forums is another option ... like on here or my site Healing Wounds (located in my link)...

Another option could be self help books on the after affects of the abuse, and moving forward in your life where you feel safe enough to go through those types of relationships again, not necessarily another partner, but just being able to trust period.

Whether 100 % of the truth is dangerous? I find reply here Psychology of love