Together for 1.5 months, left because he was unsure

Hello guys.

X and I dated in 2016 for about a month and we broke off as I had someone else in my heart.

We kept in contact through 2017 as we had mutual friends.

2018, X told me that he was unsure of his feelings for me. He wasn't sure if he would end up liking me or hurting me but we proceeded to be together as I had lingering feelings left over from 2016. This time round, I told myself that I would try my best in the relationship for the loss time in 2016. I was committed throughout but on and off again, he would tell me that he's still unsure of his feelings.

X told me that he couldn't overlook my flaws. Throughout the entire 1.5 months of being together in 2018, he told me a total of 4x that he was unsure of his feelings and whenever I ask for a break, he would come back telling me how much he cherished me and love me. Again and again, I kept trying hoping that he would look at me the same way. But the cycle continues.

X saw a girl during his graduation and told me that he find her his "ideal" type and was a little interested. Upon hearing that from him, my heart was shattered and I didn't know how to continue this. I kept wonder if my effort had gone to waste, why am I easily replaced because someone else looked better than me?

We finally broke up a week ago as both of us felt that the 1.5 months together was draining (especially on my end, as i kept trying only to hear him say that he's unsure).

Right now, I heard from our mutual friends that he had already went to talked to the girl via Instagram.

A part of me is still hanging on to him, even though I know he doesn't like me at all at this point in time. I still have hope in me, maybe because of the things he said to me.

It is very hard for me to have a clean cut from him as much as I want to, as our mutual friends are very very close to me. We game together, and hang out together. We are like in a clique and I don't want my feelings to make things awkward for everyone.

I know I should move on, but I can't seem to rid the hope in me.

Should I try again?

loey wrote:I know I should move on,

... ding, ding, ding!!!

loey wrote:but I can't seem to rid the hope in me.

... brace yourself: this isn't him, it's you. you want validation. on and off he gave you that. it's not him you want, it's the validation.

loey wrote:Should I try again?

... i'm going to say that you won't get the opportunity. and even if you do, you'll likely only humiliate yourself, which will leave you even more desperate for validation. he obviously isn't that into you. to blow hot blow cold so much is, to my mind, rather insincere. that alone would put me off. so, that's a very firm 'no' from me.