I can't solve this one neither forget het. Need help.

Hi everyone. Sorry if this is not in the right forum.

First of all, I never had problems in terms of relationships and it was always easy for me to move on from anything. I had a seven and half years relationship that I ended and I moved forward with no problem.

Now, regarding the actual situation.

Three and half months ago I meet this woman, we connected since the first moment we saw each other, not only physical connection but also "chemical". For the first time in my life I took the action to get close to a woman, even given my contact, something that I've never done before, I was always one of those shy dudes. Everyone was noticing our "connection", even everyone, friends or not, would comment about our "light" together, already talking to us as a couple, and when we would tell that we just meet no one would believe us. We started to hangout a lot together. From Monday to Sunday, seven days, we would be four days together doing something, having dinner, lunch, running, whatever we could do we would do it together. We only spoke two times about what was happening between us, she said that she really liked me, also felt the "chemistry" but also asked me to go slow, Along the way for one week or two I made a bit of pressure to her not only to get together but also to know better her feelings regarding me, she again said to go slow because it was so recent and fresh. She moved here to my area two weeks before we meet. And understood what she was asking for, so I started go give her a bit more space, not calling or messaging her everything neither inviting, with this action papers changed, she started to call me, send messages and also inviting me to do something, she even asked my if I was angry, mad or something with her, I simply answered that everything OK, that I missed her, I was just giving her space to think about us.

Two and half weeks ago I had a small fight with our friends group, they left me apart when they organized an event and I exploded with that. We meet for a Christmas dinner and I ignored everyone, including her. After the dinner one of our friends came to me and told me that she was so worried that she even saved a seat for me at her side, which I denied do seat in. I felt someone was stabbing me and felt so badly towards the way I treated her. The next three days I try to apologize to her, without success. After one week without talking we agreed to meet and talk, I think she was giving me another chance, she even said that she would pardon me, but again I messed up, by making pressure to know her feelings for me. Since then we haven't spoke to each other, I've tried to approach a bit by just asking how she was but without success. Everyone around us says that there's still story to happen between us but now I'm so insecure about everything, I'm always thinking about her all the time.

Did I messed up everything? I can't even sleep and I've tried to do other things without any connection to her, so I could move on, but without success. Last Sunday we were at the same activity, I didn't knew how to handle with her and at the end of the day I told her that, she just answered with a "give me space". I still feel an huge connection with her, there's something different about us. Don't know what.

I've never felt like this towards anyone in my life, everything was so damn perfect, what we did, how we did it, everything.

I'm always looking at the cellphone and social networks to see when she's going to say something... I've been controlling myself to not send her messages... What should I do?

I truly need help. Everyone just says "give time", but not having anything from her side is making me go crazy.

Thanks everyone.