Abandonment - boyfriend leaving party early without me

My boyfriend and I were at a party today and he wasn't feeling too great so he wanted to leave early and suggested I should stay. I really hated the idea of him leaving early, without me - it felt like he was abandoning me and a tiny part of me kept saying it was my fault that he wasn't feeling great so maybe he wanted to get away from me, even though he kept telling me that wasn't the case. The moment he went to leave, I jumped up and said I'd leave too. I couldn't bear to be apart from him.

Does anyone else feel that? As if something as small as that is a form of temporary abandonment that feels really hard to deal with?

I think you just like him and deep down didn't want to be anywhere else but with him.

Maybe you don't get to see him much? Don't overthink it.

Sometimes one of the most difficult things to do is to accept people at their word when what they say differs from the internal dialog we have with ourselves. (i.e. That he felt bad because of you etc...).

Most often in my life I have found that what the person said was actually more true than something negative I may have worried might be the case.

Its totally ok to stay at his request or to leave with him. But do try to accept that he probably wanted you to stay because he may have felt you wanted to be there and when he said he didn't feel good it was probably because he didn't feel good. And probably didn't have anything to do with anything you did (unless of course you poisoned him)

Try having a bf who leaves you out the blue and disappears without a trace for 19 years. That's abandonment.

It's good to not be in each others pockets and its good for him that he didn't want to ruin your evening just because he wanted to leave. As long as he didn't make you feel bad for staying without him then it should be A OK.