please help i don't wanna be alive ;[

rikimi004 -

Yes, understood. I suppose that's the reason many of us (myself included) can get into a relationship that we know is not good for us on some level, but the fear of losing the relationship (and being alone for a time) seems worse, and so we can get stuck in the same pattern for a long time.

You'll know when you are ready to break that cycle though, and there is just no way to know how it will turn out either way if you do decide to make some changes.

What I can tell you is that re-claiming your sense of security (or finding it for those of us who struggle with that), feels overall much better in the long run

It's a very scary thing to go through. Only you can know when it's time, but remember that no matter what happens everything is going to be ok. I promise you that. I was horribly scared to find my own independence. I was scared that something would change, things would end badly. But nothing happened, except now I'm more comfortable and not plagued by as many horrible thoughts anymore. As scary as it is, learning to overcome is the best route you can take.

You never know what will happen. But for better or worse, I believe that it's worth finding out.