Im pretty confused and obviously depressed. However, I am not sure what is causing the depression, there are a lot of possibilities or just the combination itself. excuse the grammar - im just running thru this as my brain goes.
Not knowing where to start but my last relationship. Was only 6th months long but ended horribly, he cut off all contact and disappeared, not sure why, we had no big argument and I never did anything "crazy". we talked about breaking up and staying friends prior to this and I was all for it. We just were not a match. Problem is I cant seem to let it go, i think about it every day for the last 3 months.
To make matters worse I moved to a new state a year ago and dont have any good friends or family here. Im lonely and dont really live anymore- i just go through the motions. I never had a good relationship the one before this was for 8 years and the jerk cheated on me the entire time and ended up with another girl pregnant. of course I didnt know till the end of the relationship. On top of that.. i was sexually abused at the age of 4 and raped at age 18. ( I am 32 now) I very well could have been depressed my whole life, but just to busy to notice. Now that I am away from all my friends and family it is becoming more apparent.
I have no idea.. I am lost and dont know how to get out of this funk.