I feel like i'm too weird for most people

this happens every time a girl wants to get to know me over the internet. I just feel like i'm too weird and messed up in the head that if they knew all my problems, fetishes and whatever else they'd probably run a mile. it gets to a point where I feel like i've exhausted all the small talk.I begin thinking that she probably assumes i'm normal then I consider disappearing and breaking contact because I feel any longer and she will just misunderstand me and only see me for what she thinks I am (a normal guy). plus I couldn't deal with their rejection so I guess I sort of reject them first and become avoidant.

does anyone else get where i'm coming from, I hate this. why do so many nice normal women take an interest in a ###$ up like me.

I kinda know where you're coming from. Because of my car accident my body is in pain all the time. So it's kinda awkward if someone says they're interested in me because the last thing I want is to be a burden on someone. So even if I'm interested as well I just try to ignore them. But hey listen if your strange fetishes are your problem don't share them just any girl. Save them for that lucky girl that will love you no matter what. Also I heard that if you stop watching porn and do something creative when you get that urge you can reprogram your mind. Of course you can masturbate but without porn. This issue may be tough for you but remember it's just another challenge in your life. Now go get em tiger.

I get it way too much....one thing I'm getting more and more certain of, however, that helps a whole lot and really is true, is that there are very few, IF ANY, human beings with any depth to them at all out there who arent' screwed up in their own way.....and who think that other people will "find them out" and dump them and run.....truth be told, there are more of us who DON'T fit into the little perfect fantasy we're taught to believe is "common" than there are those who do....mostly the "ideal" is anb ideal and that's all.....reality is fraught with craziness and pain and human realities like belches and burps and pain and, once in awhile, if we're able to hang in there, a nice refreshing breath of human air, full of toic fumes but brimming with humanity too......that's my story and I'm not stuck to it....