Hi, Im a 18 years old bisexual male, and yesterday I just suddenly mentioned to myself that somewhere between 14-15 years old, for something like a few months, I was sexually fantasizing about my father.
im so freaked out now. is it normal? what does it mean?? please help me, im really anxious.
BTW, I might have some grammer mistakes, sorry about that...
dont get me wrong, I didnt really wanted something sexual with him, or tried to seduce him, but thinking about his body used to get me aroused.. I dont think I even fantasized about doing something sexual with him, but, again - I got aroused by his body.. I never wanted to act on these thoughts.
damn, I remember now that touching his fallen body hair(after he took a shower) also used to get me aroused(I used to be aroused by hairy big guys).
im not aroused by him anymore. as I said - it was a pretty short period of time, but its still freaking me out.
my life is pretty normal and I was never sexually abused or something like that. I was always fine with my father and always liked him as a father(even at the period of time when I had sexual thoughts about him). theres even a girl that I love and sexually attracted to, but in these last two days I cant think about nothing but the anxiety and the fear.. please help me. is it common for bi/gay guys to have sexual thoughts about their father for a period of time in their lives/during the puberty/when they're pretty newly aware of their sexuality?
im afraid that it means something about my relationship with my father, or makes me exlusively gay, and not BI as I always knew I am.