am wondering if i am becoming a pedifile?

i am a girl and i love kids i am just wondering if i love them to much when i see a child boy or girl i get exsited and get weird feelings i have been raped and sexualy abused in the past and dont want to cause that type of pain to another human being i dont always understand these feelings but i am not attracted to any one my age or older for that matter i dont know what is wrong with me and i dont know if i am a petti i have been wondering this for around a year now and am too scared to tell anyone if anyone can help me i would greatly appreasiate it should i be woryed about being a petti because if so i have to keep myself away from children no matter how hard it my be HELP!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi confusedteengirl,

Welcome to the forum. The title to your post is interesting. Becoming suggests a process that isn't complete. I suspect if you were a paedophile you would be sexually attracted to children rather than thinking you might be becoming or about to become sexually attracted to them.

I suspect Platypus has edited your post because you stated your age, and if this is the case then you're probably pretty young. During puberty sexuality is very fluid, so I wouldn't worry too much if you find your sexuality to be confused and dynamic.

Feel free to post more and maybe we can be of support.